Emma - Hello Poetry

Emma May 2018

Love

She hadn't planned on going this deep.
She scraped at the ground, her fingernails full of dirt.
Above her was the rest of the hole, miles long. The sky was just a small dot now.
They were only friends. So why is she now trying so hard to get his attention, to have him only see her?
She clawed and clawed at the hole she dug herself into, desperate to find anything.
Anything that proved he had the same feelings.
There were many risks; the hole could cave, or she might not be able to climb out.
But she risks it anyway.
Just for love.

#metaphor #emotion #love

Emma Jan 2018

Birds in Cages

I watched
as a small bird chirped in determination
and tried to fly.
It flew with hope and strength,
but smashed into
the copper bars
of the cage that trapped it.
I frowned to myself.
Why would anyone keep such a beautiful thing
locked up, unable to do what it wants?
Then, an idea burst into my mind.
Quickly, I opened an old, rusty window
and walked over to the cage.
"You need this.
I...
need this."
The bird was trembling in excitement.
I undid the clasp, and swung open the door,
My wings taking flight in the open air.
Freedom, at last.

#freedom #poetry #cages #metaphoric #determination

Emma Jan 2018

About Me

I have made a job for myself
Which is to make everyone else happy.
That's how everyone knows me.
The happy, optimistic girl who will fill your head with happy thoughts.
It is a role that is easy to fit into and that I am capable of doing.
But as I try to make more people happy, I get more and more sad.
More and more
tired.
I am running out of happiness for everyone, and I am fearful of what
will happen
When the girl who was always happy
Doesn't have enough happiness
To hide that she is sad.

an autobiography

#optimism #roles #depression #relationships #poetry #fear

Emma Jan 2018

Normalcy

i had always wanted to see a genuinely normal person in real life.
you know, the kind of person who knows who they are and what they are doing.
i always wanted to ask them
"what's it like being surrounded by people who enjoy you?"
"how do you wake up and get out of bed at a normal time?"
"how do you get **** done without worrying about about time?"
"what does it feel like to love your family?"
"how do you not feel like you are suffocating
more and more
each day?"
a normal person would find these questions weird.
i guess that's why i've never asked.

i am full of questions

#depression #anxiety #social #family #selfloathing

Emma Dec 2017

What My Reflection Whispers

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

I am supposed to see a woman, with her head held high and shoulders back.
An object, something to admire.
Someone who has appeal, but is not too enticing or distracting.
Someone who enjoys quiet things, never yells or gets angry, and who is polite.
Who likes soft colors and never gets in the way.

****. That.

I see a beast that with pride in her step, and roars at people who confront her.
Her eyes are black slits riddled with challenge, and stares into the minds of those that are confused by her.
Her fur is not well kept out of spite or laziness, and flows in all different directions.
The bright colors shriek, "I am here. I will be seen."
Her claws are ready to protect herself from predators, who seek to destroy the mindset she is in.

The beast never slinks around or avoids being seen.
When she walks, she makes sure every step counts and strides forwards with confidence.
Fierce. Intimidating. Loud.

I am a woman. My roar makes the earth tremble in terror.

strength is key

#explicit #empowerment #reflection #identity #strength

Emma Dec 2017

When You Are Here

Alone, I am incomplete.
Solitary. Quiet. Shy.
Afraid of expressing myself too much.
"What if no one will like me?"
I cringe back from the challenge of the freedom to be myself
in order to conform.

When you are here
Everything is right. Whole.
I shout as loudly as I want, I smile as bright as I can.
You made me thoughtful.
You helped me learn to love myself.
Every compliment
Glance
Smile
Made me flutter and feel lighter
And the mention of your name made me giddy.

But.
My obsession with you was unhealthy.
Our relationship, a strong, happy thing
was not as durable as I thought.
I became the storm, the whirlpool, ******* you in
and never letting go.
And you, the fragile butterfly,
collapsed under my weight,
and broke.

I relied on you too much.
And you got destroyed.

make sure to break off relationships if they are unhealthy

#love #relationships #unhealthy #strength #growth