Wasted Youth

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

Trying is just another thing to keep me down
Smiling is just stretching my engraved frown

I saw the world around me up to a standard
I'm below it with the environment making me stranded

They say I have potential
I don't think I can leave my mind's shell

Long ago I exposed myself to the truth
They don't see that I'm just wasted youth

Hope comes with a cost
The hopeless who made a future for themselves because among those who are eternally lost

They think I have it all together
They're confused when my mind is somewhere else
Handicapped by the world I've been forced into
They don't see what I have to see every day
I'm not worse off
Why couldn't someone less fortunate switch lives with me
I'm never going to be anything
I just waste air and resources on earth
I'm wasted youth

I'm well aware this is garbage

#depression #depressed #lost #**** #useless #emo

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

Arms

Scream* into my ear every word I wanted to *hear

From you

Your brown eyes make me want to hide
Looking into them make me want to cry

Why must the odds make it impossible for you to be mine?

Every image of us I need to leave behind
In my arms is where you belong in the imagined reality in my mind

Alone I've always been, loneliness is the only future that can be *seen

#love #hate #depressed #alone #longing #emo

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

Luggage

Visions of perfection always corrupt my head
The dreams I have where hope is fulfilled is dead
My wrist are marked with every unanswered prayer I've ever said

The luggage I carry are under my eyes
A minute I lay awake in bed for every lie
I'm too strong to broken
I'm too worn down to be repaired
Victim I'll never be
Those pearly gates aren't meant for me
I'd rather walk lifeless for eternity

#depression #hate #strength #sorrow #hollow #emo #lifeless

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

Summer's Stellar Rays

I've put my life on hold
The view of my cigarette smoke passes the time
Patting myself on the back for not being bold
The days before you left, I threw on my oldest clothes so you would distance yourself from me
It was easier to push you away than to keep myself away from you

Maybe I'll cut the grass because the sound of summer and the memories of your voice are driving me insane
Trying to hang with you is my most lost bet
What I don't get, is that I'm not even missing you yet

Everything is normal
Life is still the same
I have to work for the next 6 days
I'll never have a reason again to ever say your name
The day I miss you, is when I'll observe happy people my age in summer's stellar rays

#love #life #depressed #alone #funny #emo

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

The Spark...

There was a spark that made me smile
It put me to sleep when time could not
I wished I could ignite that spark that puts life in me

When I found the spark didn't notice my reaction
I was near the edge prepared to step off
How could a spark acknowledge my being
A spark isn't alive, it's just a result of 2 things, 2 people, interacting
That's impossible

Just like you and I are impossible

When the spark, the only spark, died...
My palms covered my face because it never breathed, for it was never embraced, or born

#love #hate #remorse #emo #melodramatic

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

Grave

Every word I have to say to you feels like shards of glass escaping my throat
You put a wall up and I still see through you
Every great castle has a shallow moat
I'm not going to drown to save you

One day you'll be worth someone's time
You're far from mine
You have this dangerous mentality in your head
Live by it forever and you'll be alone when you're dead

Falling I tried to grab for someone
No one reached for me
I didn't scream I just watched the world get smaller as I sunk lower
Why would I drag someone lower with me?

Blood leaks out of your veins
You ran from your problems and you tripped and fell
The dirt, I swear I'll never taste again
Get up, and write the future only you can tell

#death #emo #worthlessness

Wasted Youth Jan 2015

That...

That could just be the end of me
Hopeless it is, hopeless it will remain
Possibility will cease to be

In the event of the unspeakable happening
I will lose all of my sanity
Blood will be shed
My wrists stained with red
This rope necklace was inspired by you and my mind that is recklace

I want peace of mind
All I need is a sign to leave these thoughts behind
I put out all of my best qualities, and all I got was a smile and **amity

I'm not on edge or anything, I'm just scared of where my emotions will put me mentally put me later this week

#suicide #self #harm #depression #depressed #emo

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