I wish my soul could be as pure
I wish I could obey ever command
I wish I could be as sure
As the one who died for this land
God is all
You must know
He died for us big or small

He is the creator
Died for our sins
I do not mean to bore
The ones who do not believe

I miss you
I love you
I hate myself
I wanna die
Just **** me now, wait
I'm to big to cry

I would rather die a thousand deaths,
rolling in despairing agony
while the blood leeches from my eyes
and skin is flayed from bone,
than taste another of your bitter kisses.

...a place I must quickly find
          to lay these words in peace
            to escape my congested mind
              in which they torment and tease

                       they need to be seen by you
                desperately want to be heard
                so now I must release them
           each and every sordid word

           it's like my mind is compelled
      and I'm going against my free will
                 but a decision had to be made
                  for my chaotic mind to be still

                            I'm laying myself bare
                 exposing every part of me
  see kindly please, my nakedness
   as you're now seeing all of me

        I watch you stare into my eyes
                       urgently trying to see it all        
                            glancing at bare white skin
                          searching deep within my soul..