Haasje

Haasje Jan 2018

I wish you could see,
even though you said it wasnt me.
You gave me Takotsubo Cardiomyopathy.

I didn't know what it was either,
but now I just feel like a seether.
But of course you where a cheater.

Again I'm the one to depart,
even though it's your art.
Of giving me a broken heart

#broken #heart #breakup #cheater #art

Haasje Dec 2017

How I meet new girls

So I met this girl a while back.
Well I didn't, but I feel like I did.
So, I saw this girl a while back.
Although, it was from a distance.

I did go to her!
Mostly stumbled, actually.
I did say hi to her,
No, I yelled to be honest.

She smiled at me.
I giggled, I believe.
She asked to go for a coffee.
Apparently I said no...

#love #meeting #new #girls #stupid #awkward

Haasje Oct 2017

Kilonova

Can you..., do...You..., Uhm,
Do you wanna be... Uhm,

Be my moon, so you're my bright light in the dark nights.
No..., wait, You be the sun and I'll be the moon.
Because the moon's only bright, because it reflects the sunshine.
No..., wait, you do be the moon AND the stars.
So I can shoot where ever I want and I'll always land with you.
No...no,no,no.

We'd both be stars, twisted in each other's orbit, spiraling in, increasing speed, an interplay of billions of years leading up to a unavoidable collision, an explosion so big we'll send ripples trough space-time itself. We'll give them something they'll see over 100 million light-years away.

Yes, do you wanna be stars with me?

#stars #space #time #love #moon #sun #sinshine

Haasje Oct 2017

My friends

My friends said: Call me when you're sober.
Now that I'm sober my friends don't call me anymore
Maybe it had been too long since I've been sober.
At least when I wasn't sober I didn't need for my friends to call.

Haasje Sep 2017

Planet Her

I want to, explore planet Her. I want to see its highest peaks, it's deepest cliffs.
I want to lay down on it's golden beaches, so soft and fine.
I want to run along with the wind as it weaves around every curve it can find.
Feel every wrinkle in the sand, every drop of water that runs down every fall, every storm, heat-wave, hurricane, sunrise, birth, fall, winter, summer, spring, life, death...

Every tear, every smile, cry, truth, lie.
All the mischief and gags
All wonders and how every many disasters.
I want, no I need it all. All I need you to be is exactly who you are, as long as you leave absolutely nothing behind.

#love #her #planet #explore

Haasje Aug 2017

I'm angry

I'm angry,
Just trowing it out there.
Not at you,
Not at her,
or him or the world or the universe or even myself.

I'm just... angry,
Always,

Have you ever been angry?
Like, so angry, that everyone turns into that one guy.
You know who I mean,
That one guy, who has always been able to get under your skin.
****** you off, makes you want to rip their head off, trow them out of a tree, into a ravine under a car while crashing an airplane onto them.

Yeah, you know who I mean.
Imagine that, that guy is never to be seen, but you always just feel, just know, that he is there.

Well,
I'm angry,
Always,
Because of the guy, who isn't there,

Always.

#angry #guy #****** #off

Haasje Jun 2017

On how drugs took another friend.

We where all called together.
Round the table we sat, chatting away.
Waiting to hear what all the fuzz was about.
I joked "bet someone died" and we all laughed.
A second later our councilors showed up.
Our smiles died off quickly.
A chill went down our spines.

Since we are all addicts here, we could feel what was up.
We waited for what seemed like forever.
Just to hear what we already knew.

Our fellow recovering friend was no more.
Our breath stopped, just like his did last night.
I felt so lonely, just like he must've been last night.
All I could think about was drugs, just like he did last night.

Now,

I'm in my room, alone.
Struggling the same battle as he did last night.
But I'm not gonna make the same mistake.
I'm not gonna give in, like I wish he didn't.
Oh, if only he didn't. We could still be struggling together right now....

This isn't really a poem, nor is it any good. But this happened today and I really needed to get it off my chest. So, yeah....