How many hearts do I have to break before I feel complete?

When kisses are wasted on someone you don't know!
When lips are united in the unfair moments of life!
When the Eager is burning your virginity!
When you end up ultimately alone in freezing bed!
When your beauty is no more than a represent from Medieval age!
Your belongings are no more than lethal rage that is blowing inside you!  
Hugging her, sensing the fragility between your rough hands!
Wondering... of A moment of happiness that lead to another visit to a hell of unrevealed emotions!
Wondering.... of what favour I'm doing to that child's feelings!
Becoming the atheist... who is losing the blesses of heaven!
She looked throughout a torn soul with unspoken words!...
"Say it" .....I said!
"I forgot the world with you!...I'm not worried"!
What a Blame i would receive from my burdened heart!
                                       What a Waste!!!!!

what is there to seek
in a world where i once sought
you with every chord of my
being
and finding the most precious
stone burnt with love
brighter than a blossoming rose?
i’ll never forget that love
it drowns me in my darkest sorrows
pierces me with darts of happiness
unravels my soul into a thousand
burning flames and yet you
are gone, you are gone,
you are gone….

I go back to that place

Through the green door
Enter the red brick house

Mikhu is still the little fairy
My eyes look for
And still my shyness
Forces me to look away
In her mother's presence

In the faraway attic
She furtively cooks me a meal
We make love
That brush our skin faintly

When I come out
She stands at the green door

Then upon the here
She is no more

.......
In the bend of my road
That way offshore
Call me with my old name
What song I sing for her

Someday in some moments
Did I leave something!
In this dusts of the way
Maybe in the monsoon of May
Or my empty way can say!

What that I couldn't understand
Wanted to understand
How all is lost
In the wheels of time
And why today all those
Cast me

I'm a tired traveler
Sitting in the shade of shadow
At the time of sunset in the meadow
What causes of an illusion!

What I have lost
Behind the mind
Does she come back certainly!
In that lost obsessed path!

I think the day has turned
Lost in the bend of road
Maybe taken the new way
In the bend of the road
.....
@Musfiq us shaleheen