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Maxwell Jan 2016
I have been fearing death
since five years old
when people told me stories
of ghosts and graves

I have feared it even more
when I lost someone special
lost someone who raised me
and gave me love for the first time

But I have missed
a terribly important aspect of death
his sibling, change
and he is everywhere, in all forms

I have never feared
anything more than change
for I never liked asking why, how,
and what did I do to deserve this

No one asked for this, but the siblings had
That is when we see the cruelty and unfairness of life
Of how we are not in charge of our own fate
And how it has been laid the moment we were born
there goes my 5 am thoughts
Maxwell Dec 2015
Lakasan mo naman ang iyong loob
Ang isip, 'wag hayaang makulob
ng kalungkutan at kaba
Labanan mo, lumaban ka.

Alam kong gabi-gabi ang iyong pag-iyak
pero sa dulo, ikaw rin ang magagalak.
Alam kong pagod ka na,
pero ngayon ka pa ba susuko?

Laban lang, sugod lang.
Wala sa nakaraan ang inaasam
Kaya 'wag kang aatras.
Kaya mo yan, kaya ko 'to.
Hindi ka pa ba sanay?
Maxwell Dec 2015
to see you is to see home
to be with you is to be at home
Maxwell Dec 2015
I was so caught up
trying not to lose you
that I ended up
losing myself
I lost the friend you loved.
Maxwell Dec 2015
I tried my best, believe me, I did.
I tried to make you stay
I tried not to leave.

But I was trying too hard
for too long for too many times.
I ended up compromising
my own happiness for yours.

But don't worry, I don't blame you.
I don't hate you for it's me.
I blame myself, I hate myself
for being so stupid to hold onto you.

I hate myself for believing
I hate myself for trusting
I hate myself for being too selfless
I hate myself for being too careless.

I'm sorry for losing,
I'm sorry for leaving.
I'm sorry for giving up
I'm sorry for getting tired
I'm sorry because I stopped.
I'm sorry because I let go.
I tried but you didn't.
Maxwell Dec 2015
Don't ever ask why I'm leaving
because I can't tell you
how it hurts
whenever I see your face

I can't tell you
how it puts me in a bad mood
seeing your name pop up
on everything I look at

I can't tell you
how I'm dying to scream
to not leave me
because you always do the opposite

I can never explain
how everything hurts
when I'm with you
Because you will never understand.
My life is better without you in it and it's probably the best for you and I
Maxwell Dec 2015
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You never see the things I do
Never paid attention
Never appreciated

How dare you wonder why I left
and downright replaced you
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