have you ever meet someone
that you just knew was out of your league?
you fantasize scenarios in which
for some unknown reason
you and person fall in love
yet you always have that
huge feeling of knowing that it
will never happen.
when I'm with you
that is how I feel
what am compared to you?
I am a stone and you are a diamond
I am a silver and you are gold
I may be uncommon but you are rare
and now my mind is running wild
again thinking about you
and me
mere delusions
that state one true fact
if we were ever something
I would question how
could you love someone
like me when
you can do so much
better
I am not new or special or shiny
I am used and common and *****
I am no different than
the common person on the street
so why me?

I'm scared
I cannot contain
I cannot restrain
I don't want to-

But I must
Oh what I would give
A touch
A whisper

*Off the deep end
I've fallen
And I cannot swim
But I don't care

i've heard that drunk words are sober thoughts,
and you are on my mind right now.
a cheap 80 proof runs through my veins,
my tongue loose with the truths that I can't face in the light;
and just like that last shot I took,
I know I will regret this in the morning.
but I've come too far to go back now.
time is running out before my eyes,
and I ache to kiss you to fill our unfinished sentences,
yet the taste of you is far too intoxicating
and I will never be satisfied with just one moment

You are not defined by the frail spine that stretches when you reach up to embrace me.
You are not defined by the plump lips that form my name in times of desperation.
You are not defined by the eyes that look at me and make me feel like the heat of a forest fire is on my chest.

You are defined by the loves you’ve lost.
You are defined by the words you’ve screamed at your mother out of pure fury.
You are defined by the quick beating of your heart when you look at another girl, my love.

Most of all, you are defined by the dark past that you are so reluctant to share with me.
Let me in.

(p.h) (j.w.)