Pay attention to your surroundings
Always count exits
And cameras
And make sure you aren't alone
For loneliness causes the voices to surface
And you know what happens then

Convince yourself you have company
Even if you're alone
Crying in a corner
Facing sword-wielding demons with a rock

Alone
Hurt

Waiting for your savior
To come from above
To help you resurface

They never come

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

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I drive all night
The only way I know how to fight
I drive all night
To search for light

I noticed a possum
I thought it was playing dead
Until blood blossomed
Like a flower out of its head
My vision flooded by red
My heart filled with dread
My mortal anxiety only grew
When I realized I have blood too

I hear the deer
They're busy snickering and bickering
While my emergency lights are flickering
They scatter in different directions
After possible danger detections
They are timid and meek
They hide in remote foothills
People see them as weak
Because their kind doesn't ****

I followed a mad rabbit
That made a bad habit
Out of always running
And digging holes
It thought it was cunning
And made of gold
Until a predatory eagle
Made it feel less regal

I witnessed a raccoon eating and called it a thief
The next day I saw it lying dead in the street
Did my erroneous blame
Lead to its execution?
That's part of the game
In this institution

Every step
Could mean death
Just by making noises
You're making choices
There are jaguars and elephants in some places
There are humans in others
Predators have different faces
They could be your brother

On this darkened road
I reach a sedentary mode
When I approach a herd of stray cattle
In my mind there is a reciprocal battle
I could ******* a saddle
I know where to prophetically lead them
But the path of least resistance is freedom
Is it really right to use disciplinary order
To keep them within a fenced border?

This road is a loop
That passes by farms of no fruit
Or vegetables for that matter
Yet we somehow get fatter
Society bloats while it starves
Because we refused to see the signs that were carved
So mothers start crying
And vultures start flying
Because everyone is dying
We're always making new recruits
To drive along this predatory loop

First my son my first born child my junior my best friend little man you are my everything I know I have not been the best father to you up to this point and I'm sorry your daddy is truly sorry I'll find a way to make it up to you but for now I just want to let you know that I am proud of you son I'm proud of the man that you are in the man that you're going to become I'm happy to say that you a better man than me my only regret is that I did not get a chance to be there more in your life Junior you're my best friend you're my everything even if I never get married you are my best man daddy always love you son. Second to my girls Paige and Isabella. Paige daddy is sorry for not being there like he's supposed to for not being the man to you that he is supposed to be for not teaching you and showing you how a man is supposed to treat a woman I am sorry for the awful things you got to see me and your mother go through your daddy is going to make it up to you I promise you I'm going to give you the world and to show you that the man that your father was is not who he is and I do not want you with a man like that paigey poo I love you you are my baby girl when I'm sad you always know what to say to make me laugh I miss you so much. And last but certainly not least Isabella my baby my twin I know you're only 2 years old and you've been through so much in these two years baby girl your daddy is so sorry for the things that I put you through for the things that you got to endure for the things that you seen I am so sorry baby I wish that you did not see the things that you seen the only good thing is that you're still young so I still have time to make it up to you but baby your daddy is sorry and not just to you but to all of you guys your Daddy loves you and I'll do everything in my power to show you guys that from here on out love always your father

You whisper small phrases,
lies written on your faces.
With my life as the token,
You make a promise that shouldn´t be broken.
With all your meaningless words,
My future flys out of my reach like birds.
When you finally let go
and the wind starts to blow,
The dream has finally ended.
My wounds are left unmended.
I walk these lonely halls
where only pictures remain on the walls.
I have become a hypnotized marionette
with a useless bayonet.
What's the truth again? Do you know?
When did I go wrong? Where did you go?
When did your lies seep into my memory?
when did they become my reality?

                         Probably
When you chose a path to bliss
and left me Falling deeper into the Abyss

Someday, my punishment will end
I'll be free form this hellish earth
Until then I must mask myself
And serve my sentence with diligence

I walk these roads alone
With thoughts swarming through my head
Music in my ears flowing like water through them all
Like air through a spiders web

The water drowning my thoughts
Them fighting for air
Soon they will give up
Freeing me from their despair

Days blend into weeks
Mind dulling and dying
But it's okay, for in the end
My soul will go back to hell

Impervious.
The defense of age.
Our hearts become small.
We’re loathe to engage.
We put up a wall.

Impervious.
In an armored suit.
Seeking protection.
To be resolute.
Avoid connection.

Impervious.
To one more heartbreak.
We like to think so.
But that’s our mistake.
Our hurt makes us grow.

Impervious.
I have tried to be.
It was just pretense.
For your love found me.
It pierced my defense.

Impervious.
Was never a thing.
I was closed off to
Almost everything—
Everything but you.