I’d love to sit and talk
to you about the world,
the moon and the stars
but you’re as far
away from me as
I am from them.

Blood trickles down my hand
as I linger at the mouth of the monster.

I scratch,
I claw,
I fight defiantly.

But it is no use.

The fires of this life
are about to burn me away for good.
There is no escape.

Future's end. Nothing awaits me.
Except a dark circle in an empty chasm.

My body weakens.
The totality of it all
becoming ever more apparent.

Tears drip down my cheek
as I fade away.

This is not what I wanted.
But perhaps
it is what I deserved.

Finally,
In one swift, eternal motion
I am pulled down into the abyss.

And erased by the bleakness
that lies there.

When I'll cry my soul away
When I'll lose my life to pain
When I won't have minds to keep me sane
Will you guide me with your cane?

No. You will only tell me I didn't hurt enough.

Been deeply fearful of being forgotten
Since she got closure and moved on

Then it mixed in with the cosmic
Terror of eternally being gone

Though often I live hopeless
I love the moon and twilight sun

If God exists, She is Unknowable
But Oh God! , how I miss my three young sons!