Looking in my tainted mirror
Disgusted by what I see.
The fat protruding through my shirt,
Covering every inch of my vile body.
Hating my reflection,
I must get rid of the fat I see.

Calories I can't stand,
Cut them down,
Cut them out.
Lose the weight and maybe then
I'll finally be happy in my skin.

Workout, build up a sweat.
Don't eat,
Don't feel.
Work the weight off so you can see
Bones sticking out, the glorious wish.

Looking in my tainted mirror
Disgusted by what I see.
The fat protruding through my shirt,
Cutting out and counting down
The evil that enters my mouth.
I must get rid of the fat I see!

I cut
Just to feel alive.

I cry
Just to feel pain.

I skip meals
Just to feel worthy.

I don't sleep
Just to feel something.

Now, I don't even know
If I'm feeling anything at all.

Run away,
They just cant see
All the tears that slipped from your eyes.
Hide your face,
Don't let them see
You're losing grip on reality.

I'm lost inside
And have no way out.
I'm trapped inside
My own dark mind.
I'm no longer afraid to let go
And just end it all now.

Run away,
No one notices your hurting,
Cant see past the "I'm fine" your saying.
Never seem to look
Past the smiles as tears roll down.
What is the point in hanging on?

Thank you,
For being there when no one else was.
For giving me a reason to stay,
For giving me a reason to hope.

Thank you,
For making life seem more bearable,
For making me smile more then I have in a while,
For making everything feel okay, even if it was just for tonight.

Thank you,
For being my reason, even though you may not know that.
For not judging me and not giving up on me.
For being my reason to give life another chance.

There are not enough words to tell you
Just how truly thankful I am.
I just wish I could prove to you how much it really means.
Thank you, I love you.