It broke my heart when I saw you cry.
We may as well be strangers, but at that moment I didn't care.
I wanted to run to you and demand that you give me some of your pain so you didn't have to feel it all. I could see you dying under the weight of it and I wanted nothing more than to save your precious soul.

Pain is a burden and it is unavoidable. It will never leave us alone; it will lurk around us like a dark omen and keep us in the shadows until we give into the screaming in our head and just
Feel it.
It killed me to see you suffer and know there was nothing I could do but stand helpless.

I can't lie to myself any longer.
You still consume my mind and my thoughts and I would rather die than admit it.
I hate the fact that I can't control that I love you. You got me hooked on your sick games and you are like a drug to me, an addiction in every single way imaginable.
It's funny because you made me believe I was special. You spoke words that I so easily overlooked because I thought I knew better than that. But I can't pretend those words didn't impact me, didn't make me so impossibly happy. I would be fooling myself if I said I didn't want to hear you speak them, and I would be an even greater fool if I said I didn't want to hear them again.
I still remember the first time my eyes saw yours as if it was yesterday. I knew from that very second that you would mean more to me, and I to you. You leaked bad news but I wanted it all, I wanted my heart to be broken by you.
And broke it you did. You had me at your feet, I would have done anything and everything for you because I was your prisoner and I was yours. I was trapped and defeated and I couldn't get out of the deep hole you had thrown me in. I remember spitting the dirt out of my mouth and thinking that I would never hurt you as much as you had hurt me.
Do you have a heart? Can you love? Do you know what it feels like to love someone so much you would die for them?
I say I don't love you, but you are not easy to get over. Especially since you continue to haunt me like a ghost in my past and present, and you will undoubtedly be there in my future.
How can I tell the truth if I can't accept it myself?

I am just an ordinary girl that laughs when other people laugh or cries when other people cry.
I'm a girl that makes stupid, irrational decisions and contemplates life while watching the stars.
I'm a girl that writes poetry at midnight and eats dinner for breakfast.
I'm a girl that falls asleep thinking, dreaming, missing or falling in love with you.
I'm a girl that listens to music to escape the hurricanes of reality that are being thrown in her face.
I'm a girl that wants to experience the joys of life, and live it to the utmost fullest that she possibly can.
I'm a girl that feels sad and lonely at times but will never show it.
I'm a girl that loves the taste of honey and the smell of cinnamon, that enjoys all things sweet as long as they are bitter.

Be different. Be insane. Embrace the music your heart sings and the wild creature that is trapped between your ribcage.

Know that you are different, and that is okay. You are unique. God placed you on this earth for a reason, and that reason was not to blend in. You are your own perfect self.

Sing the song that resides in your soul. Have no shame. Let the world know that your voice is one to be heard. And if no one can hear your shouts, then

Scream.

It's a new day.

I hope that this poem finds you, I hope that you drink in these words of comfort and know that you will get through this day. Know that every human has a purpose, and today you may find yours.

Know that you are not alone. Know that your battle will soon be won. Know that there are stars in your eyes and galaxies in your head, and soon you will be soaring among the moon.

I hope this poem makes you smile. I hope it makes you think of the good things in life, the things that make you feel warm.

Know that you are special.