I know this is not the same, but it not sane to say I’m okay for days.
You said I was the hello to your goodbyes..
All I heard is the other side of no lies.
But I sat there and can’t cried because I would feel like I’ve died to try.

People said it seems that I can’t get all of you out of my head.
Where it’s nowhere to put my love in a some paper bag.

Suffocate and throw away the best I had, again my heart said no I said.
Tell me why not so, but it’s because you and not I that had know.

I feel it that letting go does more damages then causing the damages to let go.
To say I won’t let go of my heart, but the love was loving you than better then we even start.

To forget of wanting my love without loving you.
I needed to change this to only just knowing him not wanting you.

Still falling for your big bubbles eyes.
Yet, I couldn’t hide.
So, i found myself without I.

What can I do to found you in you again?

When you emptied yourself inside because things outside made you cried.
When your sacred self startled shattered to stutter without flutter.

When no one hear this mumble yet fumble and tumbled to hear me as troubled, but why instead themselves wanting to become more humble.

Who is everyone that added anything and everything to my voice;  screaming stopped, yet heartbeat ignition, and grumbling papers with and without written symbolism.  

I needed you to be here with the gem of treasure and filled with muse of your soothe and yet I waited to hear your amused with joy and listened to this delighted sadness of how really isn’t something to be amused or nor abused.

Wanting to wait for the return of the u-turns, so I became emblems of I said I’m sorry but it was actually an reoccur of it not being the chance to say that was my own turn.

Tears, aches, and screams didn’t swivel, its shriveled.
Yet, the eyes of the stars dreamt of awakening beaming bright, and if so it's beneath dimming the lower lights.

When are we going to wake up to start believing that we should stopped competing and start complimenting to feel like were completing.

We need to be a team player instead of the team leader, replacing that with the idea of being on the same team and building something that's takes on the dream.  

How are we going to teach ourselves of what's needed to be taught? If we are communicating to each other's to misperceived when sought to read and believe of what’s being well-received.  

Why are we all on this justification to be misrepresentation as to juxtapose when we are responsible for the I could and the I suppose.    
To add what is the so what to the now what? But it's the actual what needs to be address in which perhaps misaddressing to the audience of nowadays. As if we are surrogate of the hideaways of the be real today.  

It's we and us and all of us to address the matter of comradeship of how compassion of it to be who you are. To create this level of friendship of the desire to follow the footsteps of who you are and as it's start with you and it begins with and ending of you.

My little smile behind my little tears.
Became this huge hole without you Jesus.
As I come to you with souls of cries.

I laughed a little of misery, but fears of awful lies.
The lies of trying to hide.

The pain of emotional bloom of sacrifice.
Became of this overwhelming unloved of feeling abandonment.  
Because hardships  had such strong storms.
Turning into a water that may be trouble of bridges but save of the saving atonement.
That my almighty God listens to the tsunami from my broken patch of bleeding heart like he can turn this into a healing bandages.


They had stated thy comforter, comforts the lost sheeps.
But sheeps stay asleep, until the shepherd awoke them from a dream of unreality state.

Take up thy wounds as spake from the atoning one.
Thy hands of burdens, now be lifted..

My rescue wounds may caused afflictions, but to dismayed be healed over thy grace of thy sufficient..

As I lay here behind your heart.
For I am restless in thy broken ways.
Oh Heavenly Father take me as I am.

For my beginnings will depart from thine own words.
Savior, redeemer of our Soul.
Save me from despair and of grief.
For today I learned to yearn for more of you.

Let mine own tears be closer to thee.
For my own heart may burst without the Joy.
But the love for our Refuge, The Savior.

The more of thy distance is a mourning of thy indescribable Christ.
Time of sorrows, please let it fill with grace.

Grace, let it be for no more fear of tomorrow.

Tomorrow let it be Christ.
Christ, today and eternity.

Let it be rain, for drought will cease.
Let it be filled with thy love of thy Bread of Life and thy goodness of
thy Living Water.

Let it cry out to your beloved souls in a mighty prayer.

Therefore let it not challenged of thy enemy.
But be of thy heart of thy righteous counselor.

Let it be me to say.
I love thee for I am heeding his love with all of my joy and of in his rest.
For I shall doubt not , fear not ..
However, led by his armies of heaven to be heal..
Heal of thy scars of thine own drowning tears of past years.

Be aware of thy heavenly father, for he is told to be of thy holy of all kind greatness.

When needs aren't being met through expectation of a future that will be far away behind us ..
When times had flash before my eyes and there's was no turning back to the present time of tomorrow dust..

But my own back was wondering if i was always against leaving
when always grieving on how much to the existed moment feeling that there's  was also much more needing
without it or without you it would not suggested to be believing ..

Pointed where I had envy the moment of  how the way your carelessly cared for the moment we shared ..
But without a doubt, there's was nothing wrong on how we dare to shared about how we never truly believed that it something that would  left us despair ..

As it was only the time to be nearer was seeking to how much existing memories you were to me, but as a dream we were only reaching for the moment we hope to hear of meeting, yet it somewhere I liked to be ..
Yet it stills found greater thing to remember where it ongoing hours ago.. I can't help but wonder if it is that you've  wanted if said don't ever let me go..  

As small a stop sign it can be but it never stop impressing on how much you mean to me ..
When all I can see even if it isn't you and I when there isn't one moment like this I'm dying to tried ..

I’ll be here whenever you’re near because here is whenever it begins again.
Seeing this never ends is a time worth spending it all over as long when it’s over then.

Glancing at an open entrance, there’s was a
second chance at a captivating magic of you.

Hypnotized, Fascinated, Mesmerized and transfixed of a grip..

The grip of your energy of intensity, and heartfelt with fiery, that wild’s me with passion of excitement.

Startle by your daze,
pondering, your impression of your divine  tenderness affection.

Weakling of your soft but roaring laughter.
Setting aside the  essence instincts of your humming tune of delicate communications.

Daydreaming of this remedy.
So tranquilize over my subdues.

Given an utmost twofold of adhesion connection,
within a distance from your easily broken smirk.

Despair of forcibly but yet so inseparably into shattered pieces.
Humbling over mumbling over of an insincere anguish of helpless ungiving devotedness.

For a split second of emeralds of unexplained chances.

Reminiscing the unfenced of enchanting entryway
of how the encountering the beauty of you.