I often think about you when I'm alone and afraid.
I remember everything about you.
How I could know when you looked at me.
I could remember how you said my name, how you held me during the night, and how you kissed me.
Even the way your calloused hands felt against my soft skin.
You found me within my darkest days.
You tried helping while I only pushed you away.
I pushed to far.
You walked away from me that day in the rain.
You walked straight into her arms.
You helped her and loved her.
She loved you like no other and let you help her.
I couldn't do that,
I see you with her and it pains me to see you with her.
But I let it go knowing I let you walk away.
I hate that I still love you,
I'm always going to love you.
As I lay in the grass,
I look up upon the sky,
And wonder aloud,
Does he remember me when he, is
Alone and afraid too?

As you hear his howl within the wind.
You wouldn't believe how much pain is within him.
He lost his home and family.
He's all by himself in this sad cold world.
He wishes to be whisked away.
No one listens to his cries,
Afraid of the beast he had become.
Wouldn't you want to die?
When you're all alone and have no one?

Pain pain go away
For I am not okay
You have taken over my life
You even have control of this knife
Consume me until I have nothing left
You are committing the crime of theft
  Pain pain go away
For I am not okay
Oh look you know hold a gun
I have no need to run
Your so much bigger take my last breath as you pull the trigger.

And here is this rabbit hole
light easy and free
nothing there’s a daul.
I would like to fall.

deep down taking the fall
everything is so calm
so calm and dark,
like the color of my shirt
nothing here hurts.