Danielle Barlow: Poems

10w

Danielle Barlow Feb 2015

10w

You can go straight to hell.
See you there, *****.

3 am

Danielle Barlow May 2014

3 am

Writing poems at 3 am
Because I'm depressed and lonely again.
I can't cage the thoughts running loose in my mind.
Forever stuck longing for a solution to find.

I should really be asleep by now..

All Said And Done

Danielle Barlow Apr 2014

All Said And Done

Now that it's all said and done
I only wish I had had more fun.
You are gone, but I'll be fine.
Freedom for me is something divine.

I only hope that you don't hurt
because of all the feelings I did blurt.
But after all you did cause me pain,
so I hope for you everyday it will rain.

Please keep in mind that I don't need you,
and there are other things I'd rather do.
You're to blame for all that was wrong;
and I will be nothing less than strong.

You never cared when you hurt me,
and I don't think you could even see.
You always used what would hurt the most,
and by the end I was merely a ghost.

I never really looked at the bad until it was over and suddenly there was relief..

Alone

Danielle Barlow Feb 2015

Alone

Never have I felt as alone as when you're beside me.

I'm lonely

#lonely #sadness #alone

Alone

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

Alone

I can't be alone.
The stillness and the silence
chill me to the bone.

I'm very lonely and lacking some inspiration right about now

And Then The Earth Crumbled

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

And Then The Earth Crumbled

And then the earth crumbled.
The pieces fell around us as gently as snow,
but were as hard hitting as the blow God had landed on our world.
You held me near you, so near in fact all I could feel was your warmth.
The world is collapsing, but all that is left is us.
As we lie on the ground we are buried alive with the ash of what once was.
What the world could have been, what we could have been
hardly matters when your fighting for you last breath.
I want to let the world take me away with it,
but you are pulling me like your life depends on my survival.
The world is a swirl of black and white,
and the debris of our memory is spiraling into space.
Life is over for us the instant you stop holding on.
You were the last thing binding this world together.
If I am going to die, I want it to be with you.

Help me make this better

An Important Promise to Keep

Danielle Barlow Jul 2014

An Important Promise to Keep

You've made a promise you didn't keep,
Leaving us both shattered and scarred.
I hope you know that I can't sleep
Knowing your feelings are charred.

While you're hurting yourself,
You're killing me.

Hey, you're worth it.

An Untimely End

Danielle Barlow Apr 2014

An Untimely End

It's been months now since you passed,
and since our whole world caved and crashed.
I hope you know that you're dearly loved.
What do you see from the sky above?

When you look down do you smile?
Or do you sit and think for a while?
As you lay in your bed of clouds,
do you see us in the crowds?

We think of you each and every day.
We all had so much left to say.
You came to an untimely end,
but you will forever be my friend.

My Aunt passed away last October. Those wounds don't seem to heal

Art

Danielle Barlow Feb 2015

Art

Still life portraits to hide the real life pain,
because many times art is a reflection
of what is and isn't meant to be.

#art

Beautiful Liar

Danielle Barlow Aug 2014

Beautiful Liar

Dark hair and light eyes.
I hope you choke on your lies,
Causing your demise.

Beautiful liars are the most dangerous kind

Breathe

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

Breathe

Breathe

The weight of the world is off your shoulders now, dear
Lift your beautiful head and hold it high
Demand the respect you know you deserve

Oh, but don't forget to breathe

Smile that smile that is as bright as the sun,
and make sure he sees you when you do
Turn every head in the room with your confidence

Just be sure to breathe

When you cry, do it proudly and without reservation
Show the whole world how strong you are
You are unbreakable. You are not a footnote

Now take a moment to breathe

So, this is actually about me breaking up with my boyfriend. I CAN FINALLY BREATHE

#happy #breathe

Cracks In My So-Called Life

Danielle Barlow Jul 2014

Cracks In My So-Called Life

A bullet coming at me in slow motion.
Spiderweb cracks appearing in my so-called life.
Glass falling and puncturing my porcelain skin.
Rose colored blood seeping through the cracks.

A metaphorical bullet

Cracks In My Walls

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

Cracks In My Walls

Painted dreams cover my walls,
and I think you're breaking through.
Cracks appear under your weight,
and I wait patiently for you on the other side.

Yay for breaking walls

Daggers

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

Daggers

I just can't win with you.
Everything I do makes you mad in some way.
Now I believe an apology is due,
and you have to mean every word you say.

Your words are like daggers,
and they cut me to the core.
It truly hurts when away from you I stagger.
For me I know there is something more.

Dear Friend

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

Dear Friend

I just want you to know,
that you are a friend who means a lot to me.
You are here through thick and thin,
and now I intend to do the same for you.
I just don't know how to show
the way I feel but I'll make you see.
I don't mean to get under your skin,
but I'll make it up to you.

Pretty sure you know who you are. Anyway this poem is dumb, but oh well

Dirt

Danielle Barlow Apr 2014

Dirt

Do you feel anything at all for me?
Or is this just a plot for me to hurt?
It must just not be meant to be,
but either way I feel like dirt.

Don't Give Up

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

Don't Give Up

We are lost in a sea filled with black and white shadows,
and you and I wonder aimlessly; hand in hand.
In the midst of the world of gloom your eyes still manage to shine,
and my hand locked in yours is what is keeping me grounded.
As another blow lands on our earth we are knocked to our knees.
The air fills with the ash of our hope, and all of it is lost.
As you lie down on the ground in surrender I know it is over,
because if you give up I have no reason or desire to live.
It is in that moment that I know.
And there is not a question left in my mind.
*I love you

This is a continuation of my last poem.. This means a lot to me, and it's really all symbolic..

Drowning

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

Drowning

I'm drowning in a sea of my own despair.
Sinking further and further from bitter air.
As the cold begins to settle into my skin,
I remember what once has been.

I feel your hand as it grasps at my leg,
but you don't even hear me beg.
You pull me even deeper down,
but whisper "Darling, I'd never let you drown."

I think I could make this one better with a little help

Everlasting Love

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

Everlasting Love

I love you more than words can tell,
without you my life would be hell.
I don't know what I would do,
had I never fallen for you.

You own the key to my heart.
Not until death do we part.
There is still one thing that I must know,
but I just can't get the words to flow.

So tell me now, my dearest friend.
Is our forever coming to an end?
Have I made the deadly mistake,
that has finally caused your love to break?

My love for you is everlasting,
though your feelings seem to be contrasting.
Thy love is sweet on the tongue,
and loudly to the world should be sung.

I hope you will forever be mine.
Because what we have, it's so divine.
So tell me dear, what do you say?
Will you be mine for the rest of your days?

I'm actually very proud of this one..

Everything or Nothing?

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

Everything or Nothing?

What do you do when you don't know how to feel?
Is it because you feel everything at once or nothing at all?
What does it mean when to you everything seems surreal,
and the only thing you know how to do is cry in the bathroom stall..

I know it's really short and really low quality...

Extraordinarily Unordinary

Danielle Barlow Jul 2015

Extraordinarily Unordinary

I love you.

I love you because of the way you love me.
Without exception, without expectation, and without boundary.
The way you know how to be everything good in the world.

I love you because of how extraordinarily unordinary you are.
Without concern, without embarrassment, and without regret.
*The way you are never scared to be the wonderful you you are

He may just be perfect. Perfect for me, at least.

#love

Fall

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

Fall

If you love me let me go,
otherwise you will never know
if it really matters at all
or if soon apart we'll fall.
If we fall we're sure to break,
so let it go for your own sake.

Feelings Developed

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

Feelings Developed

Feelings developed.
I tried not to let them.
You marched right in
and tore down my walls.
But you did it so gently..
like no one ever has before.
With that kiss you took half,
but the other is still mine.
*For now

**** it, Francisco.. Why did you have to say that? I was so blissfully unaware that there were any feelings at all, and now..

Fever Dreams

Danielle Barlow Dec 2014

Fever Dreams

Let me guard your fever dreams,
as nothing is ever as it seems.
Your mind is open but the inside screams,
so let me guard your fever dreams.

Inspired by the quote "I'll be the guard dog of all your fever dreams" - Immortals, but Fall Out Boy.

#love #dreams

Five Steps

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

Five Steps

Five steps behind me.
I run but can't get away.
Please, leave me alone.

About a nightmare I had..

Forget

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

Forget

Can
you
please
just
let
me
forget
you?

This is dumb, I know

Fragile

Danielle Barlow Jul 2014

Fragile

Maybe I'm to fragile to fight anymore.
I'm beginning to crack and break.
How much more of this can I take?
So while I lay here on this cold, tile floor;
I'm thinking
*"God, please finally spare me from this ache."

Ugh

Free

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

Free

It's things like this that make me wonder
if our love is going under.
Maybe it just isn't meant to be,
or you've just stopped being into me.

Either way I will be happy.
I'm not letting my self feel ******.
I don't need you in order to be me,
honestly, without you I'd be more free.

I don't know if ****** is really a word XD either way it is now

Gravity

Danielle Barlow Oct 2014

Gravity

How do you live
when the world turns upside down?
And gravity is the only thing
that cares enough to hold you.

This.. this is odd

Happiness

Danielle Barlow Jan 2015

Happiness

This feeling is strange,
and maybe came from nowhere.
Is this happiness?

I was.. happy? And I don't get it

#confused

Happiness (10w)

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

Happiness (10w)

Happiness comes and goes,
but today it will stay.

In a really good mood today for some reason or another. Let's try not to ruin that!

Haze

Danielle Barlow Feb 2014

Haze

I feel like something is very wrong,
but I just can't figure out what.
No one else seems to see what I do.
Maybe it's better they don't know what I go through.

Am I just going crazy?
Everything seems to be going by in a haze.
Nothing seems to be the same as before,
I feel it deep down to my core.

I feel like something is very off,
and I just can't seem to figure it out.
What in the world could it be?
No one seems to feel it but me.

Some people think I'm insane,
but I know what I feel is right.
How do I handle this?
I'm falling further into this dark abyss.

Help

Danielle Barlow Apr 2014

Help

In the days before we met
I was in a place to fret.
You helped me out of that place,
away from problems I couldn't face.

You mean more than words can tell,
and my life before you was truly hell.
Before you came the world was so dark
with no safe place that I could mark.

If you had never come along
I would still be living my life all wrong.
You're what guides me when I am lost
and keep me back from lines I can't cross.

He really has helped me so much

Here's To Giving Up

Danielle Barlow Jan 2015

Here's To Giving Up

My fight has lasted far too long,
and I simply cannot go any further.
This disease has taken all I have,
yet the doctors say I can't be helped.
So here's to giving up,
and here's to lying down.
This world is a cruel place,
but I may not be here long.
So if tomorrow I do not wake,
I pray the lord my soul to take.

This is more of a rant than anything. I'm so tired of this.. I'm so **** tired. I don't want to live like this anymore.. I can't eat or sleep or even move without pain anymore. It's not worth it. Nothing is worth it... So here's to giving up

#depressed #sickness

Here's To You

Danielle Barlow Apr 2014

Here's To You

You asked me to write for you,
so here I'll let my emotions shine through.
You made my heart skip a beat today,
and I just can't keep this at bay.

You make me smile even through tears,
and it seems I've known you for years.
Through all the hurt and all the pain.
When I'm with you it never rains.

As I held your hand in mine
I felt something quite divine.
The look you had in your eyes
left me breathless and paralyzed.

I just can't hide it anymore.
The way I'm feeling leaves me on the floor.
I miss the feeling of being yours alone,
but out the door that has been thrown.

Well you wanted to know how I felt..

Him.

Danielle Barlow Feb 2014

Him.

I can do so much more than him,
his future seems so very slim.
His end is going to be slow and grim,
and his chances of survival are none to slim.

He can kiss my ******* ***,
because I have no time for his ******* sass.
I'd like to put him beneath the grass,
and this feeling is never going to pass.

Pardon the language. I used this poem to vent all my anger.

How?

Danielle Barlow Nov 2014

How?

How did we go back so easily?
Back to everything we once were.
I think this is what I want,
but what I need is another thing entirely

How Dare You?

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

How Dare You?

Everything I was has been stripped away,
and I really hope you're satisfied with what you did.
When you gave me no choice other than to obey,
did you know that you were scarring an innocent kid?

All my self-confidence thrown out the window,
and I'm sure that to this day you don't give a ****.
You are nothing but just a sick ******.
How dare you call yourself a man?

Sorry I haven't posted in a while.. but a lot has been going on

How Time Used to Fly

Danielle Barlow Jan 2015

How Time Used to Fly

There has to be more than this to life.
More than empty lies,
and more than eternal strife.
But, oh, how the time used to fly.

It used to fly by in happiness,
an endless dream of expression.
Now it creeps by in nastiness,
an endless road from depression.

Oh, if I could fly as the time had
I would already long be gone.
Without me time would be glad,
and the world may see a new dawn.

I literally don't even know anymore

#depression #time

Hugs and Maybe Kisses

Danielle Barlow Feb 2015

Hugs and Maybe Kisses

Random texts, confused conversation,
and practically dying of this anticipation.
Secret glances, embarrassed blushing ,
and trying to calm the heart that's rushing.

I wish I knew what was going on. There's just so much I don't know

Ice Queen

Danielle Barlow Aug 2014

Ice Queen

I only realize how cold my heart is
when I feel the warmth of you against me.
Only then does the layer of ice around it
begin to melt.

Sometimes the only time I feel a thing is when he has his arms around me.

I Don't Need You

Danielle Barlow Nov 2015

I Don't Need You

As rivers of mascara run down my face I think
What did I ever do to deserve this?
Tear stains on my once rosy cheeks
serve as a reminder that nothing good can stay.
No, I don't want your sympathy.
I don't want your ******* pity.
You can take your knowing smile
and shove it straight up you ***.
I am enough on my own.
I can make it without your help.
The fact of the matter is,
I don't need you.
You only wish I do.

You're a ****. Get out of my life, please.

#anger #saddness #angst

If The Sun Went Out

Danielle Barlow Apr 2014

If The Sun Went Out

What would happen if the sun went out?
The world as we know it would end, no doubt.
It'd be strangely like losing you, I fear.
Along with everything else that I hold dear.

All the light in the world would be gone,
and I would loose all my will to carry on.
The entire world would be a cold, cold place
and for the end we must all brace.

A conversation I had with a close friend made this come to mind..

I Just Give Up

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

I Just Give Up

I lied.
I'm not doing fine.
I need you here with me,
but I just can't see
why you won't stay.
Am I in the way
of your greater plan?
But my love for you still spans
over the entire earth.
Can I share your mirth?
I'm sinking in my depression,
but you haven't learned your lesson.
I don't know what to do
since you can't see us through.
So for now I just give up.

I know this *****, but I needed to vent.

I Needed You

Danielle Barlow Jan 2015

I Needed You

I needed you..
When I was lying in that hospital bed,
but you were busy with her.

I needed you..
but I don't think I need you anymore.

How could he do that?..

#love #pain

Infinite

Danielle Barlow Mar 2014

Infinite

Is anything really infinite?
Or does it merely spend?
It can either be gone in a minute,
or here until the bitter end.

I know this is really short, but what do you think?

Innocence

Danielle Barlow Nov 2014

Innocence

Cracks appearing in my porcelain skin,
probably because I'm thinking of you again.
The beauty of innocence will soon disappear,
and I will be left with eyes not as clear.

I don't know anymore what is going on. I feel like he took my innocence.. I associated porcelain with innocence.. I don't know why..

In Our Way

Danielle Barlow Sep 2014

In Our Way

Red and white lights passing in all directions
at speeds that shouldn't be humanly possible.
As I try to clear my head of any distractions,
the thought of what used to be is unstoppable.

A black blur whirling and winding all around me
reminds me that nothing good can ever really stay.
Occasionally, there are times when I simply can't see
just what trials and obstacles lie in our way.

I don't understand this poem.

#confused

In Seven Days Time

Danielle Barlow Feb 2015

In Seven Days Time

In seven days time
my entire world will change.
My future rests on just one day.
And I can't sleep or even eat,
due to the sheer pressure
that will come in seven days time.

SEVEN DAYS.

#scared #excited #auditions

Invisible

Danielle Barlow Mar 2015

Invisible

Days spent with an invisible friend,
and nights spent with an invisible lover.

I'm just really lonely

#love #lonely #invisible