His fingers reach for the glass pipe and all you can think about
are his eyes
and how they’re the color of every city you’ve never lived in.
The smoke undulates from his lips
like the most honeyed death sentence
into the chasm that surrounds the two of you, and the words
“he’ll destroy me”
are ringing in your ears.
He’s a paradoxical boy,
with his shooting star hands and his nebulous mind,
that carelessly leaves his magnetism lying around
for you to trip over.
Perhaps that’s how he gets girls on their knees.
You have fallen for a boy whose words fall from his lips
like dark matter, but he is
trapped inside the black hole of his own mind.
He cannot fold himself around your galaxy
because he cannot escape his own.
He’s lost there.
The sadness in his eyes
is a mirror
and as you stare at yourself you realize
this is the first and last time you’ll love your own reflection.
Now, you will only meet up in the
liminal spaces between this life and the next.
He will come to you in daydreams,
this is the only place where you can learn to love each other.
When you are in the shadowy spot
between sleep and wake,
refrain from memorizing the outline of his lips when he smirks.
The sunlight will take it away
as quickly as it gave it.