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Sep 2015 · 536
Dot Dot Dot
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
I looked up  Bell's Palsy on the internet yesterday
I always expect the worst
cancer
deformity
disappointment
If I expect it, will it lessen the blow?
or is it a waste
and I'll die in my sleep surrounded by loved ones?
Life has no guarantees
Sep 2015 · 677
Discretions
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
watching me always
sunken eyes in the birch trees
black holes in my mind
Sep 2015 · 1.2k
Our Roar
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
Now the lies that they've (we've) told have surely grown old
Childhood stories of growing up and the happiness it holds
melts into the facts
life clearly, it lacks
so she falls short and stumbles back to memories

"It's too hard to handle", she often would state
everything it seems, is a disappointing weight
By those who had once held onto her hand
the notions about the way they had told her to stand
"Hold your head up! Walk with pride! Look for rainbows!"
Now every single time she is loaded with woes
so she lays down and aspires for days spent in memories

And I never really thought what they said could be true
well I guess I did in daydreams when the sky was clear blue
By examining their faulty smiles
their faces as long as the Nile
I would give up and fall back into memories

Sometimes I wish I was stupid and young
I tell myself in all honesty and with my mouth open sung,
"If I wanted I could just disappear and then cut"
So every once in a while when my eyes are held shut
and her (our) body lays in blood and lost memories
Sep 2015 · 397
Happy Valentine's day
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
The windows of the plane are tiny
Normally they would make me feel anxious
and claustrophobic
but not today

It's raining
the sky is gray and I feel like I've been punched in the stomach too many times and now it's numb
My mouth is dry and most likely it'll only get drier

I said "I love you. I'll miss you."
and we parted ways.
Sep 2015 · 422
Gone. Girl.
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
light bleeds past curtains
stale bread waits with cold coffee
bills slipped through the door
Sep 2015 · 203
Title (optional)
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
the child is still born
pink skies melt in the background
time for work again
Sep 2015 · 388
Dissassociated
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
When the dust settles
and the streets are paved with broken headlights
lights blinking and screams heard from miles away
my thoughts are silent

When the noise settles
and we're left with our bare sticky skin
the moans replaced with your heart beat pulsing through your veins
my thoughts are silent

When the sun settles
the dusk turned into stars
and the dogs aren't barking and the babies aren't crying
my thoughts are silent

Shh,
can you hear them?
Sep 2015 · 2.7k
Mirrors and Mastrurbation
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
I love the way I look when I gasp
I hope I go out gasping for air
Head up
mouth open
like I'm coming and burning at the same time
Sep 2015 · 675
Speeding
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
I drove down the 605 and lost track of time.
"I'm just one drug run away from death", I thought to myself
as I listened to country blues and wondered how I'll feel
when I'm ten years older.
I thought I wanted kids but maybe I was wrong
I'm not sure if I'm tired of being tired
or bored of being bored
or which would be worse.
The heater blasts hot air against my face
It's too hot so I turn it on cold
It's too cold.
It never feels right.
Sep 2015 · 542
Chemistry Class
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
Being in love means you don't know someone
It's a chemical reaction to hormone attraction
Either you love someone, or you don't
being in love means you haven't decided yet.
Sep 2015 · 536
Thursday at 4:00 p.m.
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
My psychiatrist sees me as a welcome change
like meeting an old friend
He leans back in his chair with that goofy smile
and asks me questions while he stares
at my pretty face
Sep 2015 · 2.3k
Sweet Savory Lovers
Cordelia Rilo Sep 2015
With plump **** I devour books
The pages pressed against my soft *******
My belly holding its firm bottom for support
I ravish them
Consume them
Feast on them until I'm full

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