I want to feel my head on your shoulder
And your hand in mine
Not from the lust of some schoolgirl dream
But from the desire to finally feel
Safe and sound.

Made me a coffee,
Forgot to boil the kettle first.
It was really rather cold,
Indicating that I must be getting old.
The microwave charmed me,
as it warmed up my mug,
Ah yummy,
Tepid nuclear coffee,
In the early afternoon.
(C) Livvi

slurred lyrics from underneath
the ***** window, ready to be cleaned,
words so peacefully spoken,
that it makes your heart dance,
spinning world,
entering a different dimension
where all you can do
is sing me love songs
on your old, rusty guitar,
and all i can do is smile,
crinkle my nose and get
lost in the universe that is your mind.

Another Friday.
I get up
False hope
That this one could ever
Be like that Friday

That Friday night
When he came back
And made my night
Even better
A night I will never forget

And as 7 comes
And passes by
I reload the page
A million times
While sitting there crying.

I wish he'd come back
I'm empty without him
He left me a shell
Empty, worthless,
Waiting for him to return.

i wrote my life in pen
mistakes can't be changed
and regrets that surround me
weren't always regrets
because i did love you once
and died at your touch
but now i die everyday
thinking of what you used to say

Here and now
We say our final goodbyes
We say that we want to part ways
But we really want to stay
We don't want things to end
We never did
We love each other
We were meant for each other
We have shared so many perfect memories
We had perfect days
We had perfect months
We had perfect years
We wish this wasn't happening
We will miss each other so terribly much
We will never be apart for long
We always come back to each other
We love each other that much
We care for each other
We comfort each other
We need each other
We make a perfect team
Like fire and ice
Like peanut butter and jelly
Like life and death.
But one of us became unhappy.
Was it you?
Was it me?
I can't remember.
I wish we didn't have to end
I loved you.
Did you love me?
You said you did.
I wish I could know for sure.
I want to stay with you forever.
I miss you already.
I will never be the same without you.
I don't know how I'll survive.
I remember all the fun times I shared with you.
I like to think about my past with you.
I wish I had had more time with you.
I know that you might still come back for me.
I hope you do.
I miss you.
Do you miss me?

I'm walking in the rain.
Hooded head tilted down.
Thinking about the school
And its restrictions on me.

Thinking about how this new girl
May be my new love.
Wondering how I've came
To cutting myself.

There's two places left uncompromised.
At home alone or out and about
Where none can catch me.
Where none will doubt me.

Where I can write my heart out.
Where I can cut (myself) without fear.
Where I can believe in Santa Clause.

Where I can listen without judgement.
Where I can be free without conforming.
Where I can love without hate.

I feel sorry.
Sorry for sinners,
without any hope.
I feel sorry,
Sorry for the flowers,
Stuck sitting in the ground,
through the pouring wind and rain..
I feel love,
the ability to love.
I feel war,
and I hate it.
Abhor it in fact.
I feel truth and I trust it.
Where I felt the cloak of darkness,
The Velcro's pulled apart,
It's slipping from my shoulders,
The lady has a filling heart,
Since she met you.
(c). Livvi

Words hurled with fury
Like burning embers
Too hot to keep inside
Paper catches fire
Billowing smoke of anger
Choking the heart

I feel invisible
I am on mute
Nothing I say seems to register
I am not interesting
I am nothing
I am just a filler
Filling out some leftover space
I am the introns in your mRNA
I just happen to be there
I just happen to exist
But I might as well could not
I'll be invisible 'til I rot