As I sit and stare
distraught with despair
Of choices made, and life's game that's not played fair...
As I drift away in thought
as if carried by air
I think of you my love
A thought not rare
The smell of fresh violet throughout the air...
That lit up my flame that shot off like  flares..
Ode to your magnificent glow
From head to toe
I send a kiss
To your sensual lips
From my heart to ur soul

Once upon a time there was a girl and a guy.
Let's just call them Bonnie and Clyde.
As soon as they met eyes, they knew it was on for life.
no matter the weather side by side they're going to fight together.
Like a bird to a feather
A bike to a pedal
Pinocchio and jepedo
I guess they got fed up,
With family saying they got to do better.
So they agreed ta "**** it" wateva
Our loving bond is a treasure
So Nothing else matters
*******.. go to hell and stay foreva.
She was his reason for life
and he was her reason to fight
And nothing could come between them..
Not even a shed of light..
So there young gunz on the run
Cold as ice.
Down for each other.
like a sister and brother
And love one another
As a husband and wife....

Everyother day I was running away.
Met the man of my dreams.
But he was older then me.
Didnt think my mom would agree.
So we did what we did without thinking.
Living life on the streets till we had enough money.
To get our ***'s to Georgia.
Where we thought we would be free.
Well the joke is on me.
See I had todo time.
While he got to walk free.
Life is so funny.
I was only 15.
I knew how life worked on the streets.
Always on the run so the police can't catch me.
Stealing cars and breaking into hotel suites.
Now tell me have you ever walked in my shoes.
Where you would rather starve then give up the stars?

I'm getting lost in this game you play.
Acting like nothing has changed.
I have came along way.
From the old days.
But this game you play
Has my flame ablaze
One I thought I hide away.
I'm getting lost in this game you play.

If you love me.
call me!
I'm not trying to play games.
I know your far away.
But I can't be played!
I'm going all in.
It's the last attempt.
So if you love me call
Don't play no games!

You call.
And tell me you will call back.
If this isn't a game.
Then I dont know what your playing
If I can write this.
Before my phone rings.
Then this is..
Just make believe.
If your for real.
Then tell me I'm crazy.
Because I'm falling in love.
And I don't do that much.
There have only been three.
That I was crazy.
And you where my first.
And only.
No one else knows the real me.
So please call back before.
I go crazy.

I feel stupit .
For writing all this.
But it is what it is.
And I can't change it.
I thought maybe
You cared
Enough to read this.
But who was I kinding.
I can't change it.
Silly me
I thought my first would be my last.
But who am I playing.
Now that I have two kids.
Who would want me.
It's all goods I have what I need.
My family.
I just thought..
A little to much.
About something that wasn't for me.
Maybe one day you will feel me.
I know that it's not just me.
Who thinks there being played.
But baby.
It's all in for me.
If you want to play
But this game
Only plays
Before all cards are in.
And I'm hoping we both win!

I might not answer your call
I'm still a little lost
I want this to be true.
But I'm falling through.
I can't just wait.
If this is fake
I really thought it would be true.
And I would end up with you!!
But i could of made  a mistake.
That I will have to repay.
At the end of the day.
But I will pray.
That god keeps you away.
Away from all the things that can change your ways.
Please don't say.
I love you babe.
Till we have a whole day.
To say
Our true ways.