I drive at night
and my eyes find
dark water that reflects
and stretches
carnival lights
beyond their normal
lines.

Pain isn't always sharp and piercing
Sometimes
It is a dull ache
A still knife in your body
One you think is gone until it twists
And fresh pain shoots through every nerve
Raw
Sharp
Forcing you to vividly relive again and again the cause of your pain
You'd think after the 12th time it wouldn't hurt as bad
You would get more used to it
You would start to adjust to it
You would get over it
But every time the knife twists---

I hear that it is raining
I hear every drop falling on the floor
but I looked up in the sky
there were no clouds

Where did the raindrops come from?
why do i hear the raindrops?

the raindrops did not come out of the sky
the raindrops came out of her eyes
I saw the gray clouds
they do not come out of her eyes
but from her broken heart

she was alone, sad and helpless
but I will not let the raindrops fall out of her eyes

because i will be the sun for you and
I'll wipe the rain out of your eyes.

Mirage mirror
Told I must fall
the lower

Dainty Saints
Vowed this is all
the more

Sizzling scissors
Made me small
they bore

Pity,
gore
and snuffed pores
***** no more today.

How we c o i l and s w i r l
Serpents                        into
Bright           and       black.

          Gnawing and pawing
                             Beavers into
          Bobbed apples      seeds.

Why we writhe and ache
  Worms           into
Withdrawals headaches.

                            Hermits        on Holy Grail Chase
                            Beacons into
                                                        Dist­asteful      b l u r s.

                                     May we shine
Eagles into
Suns and kins.