i've made myself sick my stomach turns in knots i haven't eaten... in a long time and i just keep pouring more and more chemicals down my raw throat because maybe one will make the demons SHUT UP for a moment
i spent my life trying to please someone with a twisted disease i broke myself down and tucked my feelings away to become the person they wanted me to be i let myself be watched through the glass of a two sided mirror of a sociopath i wallowed my spirit away and begged for acceptance but there’s nothing in the world that i could do to let the narcissist know that i am human too
the only thing that can please a narcissist is being miserable
This time it might've been real she might have actually left me for real now and i'm so scared but i'm so high i don't care once it leaves i am rushed with emotions that were absent when i was in the clouds I'm still gonna miss her too much for my own good i need some downers
everything is heavy it hurts to move it hurts to breathe i just want this pain to end this drama i’m sick of worrying whether or not people think i’m a monster i just want to be left alone god, please just leave me alone
you, and me, we are, unified souls, simply, united, an unbreakable set, underway, sailing, like ship and sea, this two-way street, you, and me, we are, us. [one].