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I see the warmth
But feel the ice
I cannot touch
A storm to die
Frost grow faster
Shivers along my spine
The ice is breaking
  Cracking in thin lines
I don’t feel
That I’m slowly  f r e e z i n g
Ice in my veins
And I stop b r e a t h i n g
Nothing to touch
      Nothing to h-o-l-d
Why do I live in
A World So Cold?                                                                                        
S­ h a d o w s all around me
That I can feel
I cannot see
If they are real…
There is no end
There is no light
A broken soul
Without a fight
How can I see you
If there is no sun
But I can sense
That you're not the one
I shattered the surface
I killed the spark
I am forever alone
In A World So Dark                                                             ­                                   
Then I saw him
My breath was taken away
What could I do?
What could I say?
How did I miss him?
Was I too blind?
     Too see his perfect look
One of a kind?
I fell for him
But he caught my soul
He held me in his arms
  And made my heart whole
No longer cold and dark
No longer filled with regret
Because he’s in my life
In A World So Perfect.                                                                                        

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I've been making bad decisions lately,
I've been choosing your happiness over mine.
I've been hiding my smile just to make you laugh...
I've been living for you,
maybe it's because I have been lonely..
Unlike pnd I've been lonely all the days of the week & not just on thursday nights..

I've been yearning to be loved for once
To be caressed for once
To be someones " girlfriend "for once

You came at the right time, when my mind only knew solitude
Oh how great it was letting my mind meet a fellow human.
we enjoyed the moments, maybe you more than me.

I got what i needed, an occasional " I love you " and a "goodnight gorgeous"

I was fine till i started making cracks on the walls of this "love" we had.
I pointed out how the corners of our affection were crumbling, you said no we will be fine
I pointed out how the floors of our love were opening in half, you promised me that we'll be fine.
I pointed out how the walls of our conversations didn't look the same anymore, you said no I'll be fine.
And in that moment the ceiling of our companionship started cracking, you said no you'll fix it.

I asked " what about we?, can't we do this together" you kept quiet....

Baby, I had to sit back and watch you slowly change into someone I didnt know.
& finally when my addiction to you that turned into a habit that soon turned into a hobby stopped

I took my heart and walked away, but you know what hurts? You held the door of our relationship open for me.

You wished me a happy departure.