You wear your heart on your sleeve,
But he tells you to put on a sweater.

There are things we wish we hadn't seen,

And things we wish we could have.

Like that time when you and your family were watching a horror movie, you were under the sheets, covering your eyes and ears, and every few minutes you'd sneak a peek at the screen only when it was a scene in broad daylight.
Or like that other time when you were sick, and all you wanted was to watch your sister's baseball game, and see her get a home run; but you were stuck there in bed with an ice pack on your forehead, helpless and wishing illnesses didn't exist.

And then there was that one time, and it was like watching a horror movie with your family all over again, but this time you were alone. All alone. And it was in the park. And it was you seeing that girl you fell in love with years ago with her new found, so-called lover. You wished you had a blanket you could hide in, the same way you used to. But you didn't, and you couldn't. You swore to yourself that you were over her, but why does it feel like that the murderer got to you in the horror movie? You never stopped. You just told everyone that the case was closed, but in reality, the suspect is still out there, and you are still it's victim. The suspect with four letters in her name, Love.

Just because I hide things,
Doesn't mean I'm not honest.
I mean we're all just human,
And we all have our secrets.

I'm sorry if I hide things,
If I don't let you do what you want to.
I mean why should I?
When all my secrets are about you.

I may haven't written in a while
But that doesn't mean you don't cross my mind.
You are all that I look for,
The only person I want to find.

I look for your face in crowds,
In streets, in malls, everywhere.
Every step I take is a hope,
A hope that I'd find you there.

Hi darling, I really miss you.
I just wanna see your face again.
Hug you tight and kiss your cheek,
And say I love you as much as I can.

The sun is shining, the weather is hot.
Skins get darker, sweaters start to rot.
Everyone waits for this time of the year,
Where they go to beaches with a cooler full of beer.
Every night they throw parties for fun,
and every morning it’s bathing in the sun.
They go on vacations to oceans of blue,
But what my mind needs, is a vacation from you.


(c.j.)

I can’t seem to remember what it feels like to fall in love.
Maybe because you are the only one I want
And I don’t even remember the start of it all.
I don’t remember when we first talked,
When you first hugged me,
When you first laid your lips on my cheeks.
I don’t remember anything.
And I don’t think I’d ever remember how it feels to fall in love
Because I don’t think I’d fall for another star
If I’m in love with the universe.

*xoxo cj

If I had the power to let the universe know that I love you,
I’d whisper in your ear, because you are every star,
every comet, every constellation, every asteroid,
every halo on the planets, every moon,
and every galaxy that makes up the entire world.
You are my universe. And I am willing to explore
each and every part of you.