I've been holding back without a reason why.
I want to lose my control and you to be by my side.
Only you can make me better. I want to be real with you.
But you don't notice me. Standing there near you.
You only lay your eyes on the other girls.
I'm just a fading shadow in your eyes. Only you can change the way you look at me.
But the waiting kills my soul.

A blank paper*
I have in my lap
but in my mind
it's more than that
with a touch of imagination
i can create so many *creations.

The blue skies you see
Was the gray skies for me.
Tell me I'm colour blind
But no! That's the emptiness inside me.

My shadow in the mirror
That's the blurred charrade of my life.
Horrible wounded girl
Whole life was trash and ******.

Anger
Hatred
Depression
Sorrow
Sadness
Self-hate
Teribble breakdown it is.
Just wanna be free from this chains.

I want it to be treated like illness.
Need to recover and be okay within days.

I've felt a lot of pain before.
From knives
To guns
From blade
To razor
But this pain is beyond my expectation
Your words cut me
Your lies kills me
Your tounge serves as the sweetest poison.

You're my life
But you're my death.
You're my heaven
Yet you're my grave.