Sometimes tears just don't happen.
Sometimes you feel your soul crack like glass
And watch the pieces fall in glittery shards
To a floor that's as unforgiving as those who made you this way.

I lie wide awake
quarter past three in the morning
the clock shows

Some serial, watches my mum
in that space of hers

In the same room as mine
sleep my brothers
Quiet, it is
For thoughts, inspirations
I wait

I thought
when finally neared me
I had fallen asleep until then
A dream it turned out to be
Now, I can't recall a thing

Holding back the tears, I
collected my belongings
your belongings
My decision it was, to leave
I want you to stop me

At the door I stand
Arms folded,
out of the window, you gaze
I want you to look at me

I started to pace,
far from you
I would've stayed
*If you just stopped me once

Lotus flew over the
Surface of my
Consciousness

The synergy
Surrendered to
synchronicity

Within
Stillness
Of your being

The
Blossoms
Of love rains
Blossom

Caressing my gaze
for the first time
struck by magic
thunderbolt

And fires rode
In awe,

Written
Upon your
Tamed times

And absolute
Seeded pine
Trees

Written like a wild
dew drops glow on
a black tulip.