Sometimes I forget for an instant
who we are.
In those moments where:
I hold your head in my lap and brush my hands through your hair.
You hold me captive against you under the freezing stream of water in the shower.
I watch the lights dance across your face as we drive through small towns late at night.
You stand behind me in the kitchen next to the stove, strewing kisses across my back,
my shoulders, my neck.
In those moments you are everything. You are mine.
And she doesn't exist.
because my heart hurts. and because I ****. and because I’m stupid and I’m crazy about someone that isn’t mine.