Sink into the sea,
drift into the coma
Let the silence overwhelm you.
Let it take you in it's arms,
let it breathe into your heaving lungs.
Enjoy the few moments
before the storm.

This is it.
The final time
that you will push me around
or hurt me so much
that I spend the night in tears.
You obviously do not care about me
No, not at all.
So I am done
with you and your *******.
Those were the final tears,
the final time, that I wasted on
someone as awful as you.
So please,
show yourself to the door.
And do not come back.
You are not welcome.
I won't apologize. Not to you.
Not again.
Never again.

who cares if the spaghetti sticks to the ***
who cares if a guest shows up late
it's not her 18th birthday
it's my baby brother's
and I'll wear my nose ring if I want to

maybe* i am better off alone,

maybe i am not worth anymore,

maybe i shouldn't breathe,

maybe i should take the razor,

maybe i should draw red lines on my skin,

maybe blood will come out and run,

maybe i will lose conscience,

maybe i will fall on the floor,

maybe no one will find me,

maybe i will finally be at peace.

Maybe
If I tore open my chest
And let my soul come bleeding out
To seep into the cuts
Ingraved deeply on your hands
I would soak in so deep
You would have no choice but to
Taste me
In every breath you took
See me
In the darkness behind your eyelids
Feel me
In every spine-tingling chill
That made you feel so much more alive
And maybe
Just maybe then
You could finally feel
What is like
To be connected to someone in such a way
That you think they live beneath your skin

Dear Happiness,

Arise
in her eyes.
Stop her sighs,
the cuts on her thighs.
Make her realize
that the highs
won't stop her cries
or hide her lies.
And if she dies...

I'll miss her.