For all the fires in my heart
And all the verses I try to start
All of the poems that distract me from time
And run loose through my heart and sing in my mind
For all the muses in my head, muttering like one sage
I somehow can't always put it on a page

Don't tell me where we're going
I don't really need to know
As long as it's far from here
Just take my hand and go.
Let's not linger too long on the past
And please don't go too slow
For night's guise is our blessing
And day's revealing light, our foe

Why is it that when I'm with you
I can never seem to be myself?
Why does talking with you instantly
Turn me into someone else?
I know this arrangement is a little unstable
But I'll keep it in place as long as I'm able
Because if you saw all the parts of me
All those things I don't let you see
I know you'd react quite badly
So I gaurd my secrets quite madly

I know one day this will fall apart
One day I will have to reveal my heart
But there's a place I need to be in by then
So, until then, I just hope nothing happens
Because if that wall comes tumbling down
And I'm in a bad place for my secrets to be found
I'd never see all of those dreams I have through
So despite the foundational cracks, I still hide from you

And I know things will never be the same again
When I've changed so drastically from beginning to end
And despite all of the advice that everyone's said
I want to get to my goal, so I keep my secrets in my head

I fear the dark in another's eyes
As much as I fear the one of the skies
For while the skies can guise and surprise  
The danger lies with a heart rash and mind wise
The ability for lies and the want to take lives

My mind raises a cacophony
Of songs from punk to symphonies
There's so many songs I want to hear
Too bad I only have two ears

Like a black anaconda
I lose my breath to your grip
In a moment of delight

She's terror and beauty and logic and grace
She looks around time and dances through space
She's academia and nature, the books and the trees
Trapped in a loop, yet eternally free
She understands others but is her own girl
She respects others but lives in her own world
She doesn't start fights but she sure as he'll finishes them
She wonders where she's going and where she's been
She's knowledge and truth, justice, beauty, and love
She is the philosopher, living here, looking above

I don't know what to say
Or what I should do
Now that I know you'll never
See me as equal to you

You keep asking me
"Why did you quit that class?"
Its been five years
And yet you all still ask

I have always said
"They kept changing the laboratory
I could never find the class."
But that's only half of the story

The other half of my tale
And the one much closer to truth:
The location wasn't such a hard mystery
I just stopped being a seluth

Because after a while I stopped
Even trying to look for the club
At that time I began
To stop caring about when it started up

See, at that time I began
To lose intrest in many things
I honestly would've flown away from there
If I just had a pair of wings

So the real reason I stopped
Ever showing up to that class
Was that, in the end, I stopped caring
Wether or not I would pass

We come into existance
Unaware that one day
It will be taken from us
As we spiral into a great unknown
(Because life decided to leave eternity a mystery)

It's not very often
That I find myself dreaming
And it's even rarer
For me to wake up screaming
But in a hotel room
In the middle of the night
I had a nightmare
Almost exactly like my life

I say no even though it's a lie
'Cause when I say yes, you don't hear the reasons why

How can I ever get to sleep
When my mind is always screaming?
And for what reason should I sleep
When I am always dreaming?

"You used to be so fearless
And now you only think
If what can go wrong.
I wish you'd become fearless again."

Don't you think
That if I could stop fearing
I would?
Do you think
That I like
Being afraid?

Should I trust my instincts
Or my family?
Should either of them
Get to decide me?

Do you really want to know
What's tearing me up inside?
It's that when I'm with you
All I can do is hide

As long as I'm here
In this house and school
Breathing deeply feels
Like I'm drowning in a pool

All I really want
Is to get out of this place
Wether I end up nearby
Or in outer space

So please don't tell me
"Just relax and smile."
Being free to be myself
Will just have to wait a while

Sometimes the only thing
That gets me through the day
Are my eight million fantasies
About running away

I wish I could
Be open and free
But honestly, people want
A perfect version of me