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Dec 2016 · 1.1k
Hi , i'm a freak
Blendi Pajaziti Dec 2016
Tell me, my choice was not,
and never will be,
to hurt you.
I only hurt me.
You,
hold my hand.
Me,
gone with the wind, up the cliff, climbing that tree.
Help me.
I die , moonlight burns my bones.
Into ashes.
My soul sprinkled all over my bed sheets, i don't feel like getting up.
Oh, Sir, you have died.
A lot you gave me, do you see?
I am not what you left behind, I am nothing but a mere illusion of what I'm told to be.
I have to ask, will you be scared
of the monster,
life has turned me into?
By life, I mean,
people .
Will you all run away from the beast?
Will you stay until i eat what keeps you alive, and then leave?
Run.
Aug 2014 · 454
My dear
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
This letter  , i always wanted to write
This story i never wanted you to know
But not qiute
I'm feeling so low
And i know it's not right
I'll tell you know , so
This may hurt you , it might
I hate you , no
This may look like it from your sight
This may show
The truth tonight
I've cried a hudred times in a row
I know i'm not gonna win this fight
But remember those memories through
Everyday , rather than hold them tight
And i want this for you to know
You have a really bright light
So i want you here
To take the darkness away tonight
Aug 2014 · 3.1k
Regrets to mistakes
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
In this place , i find myself
In this case , i cry every time
While we share the same sky
We stare at the same moon
Why do i have to stay alone
In this lonely room
Am i right or wrong?
Or am i a fool
I've been strong
But this has brought me
To my knees
Tell me please
You're here to stay
Stay , oh stay
And never walk away
This painted wall
Seems so black
Remembering all those names
You would call
I need you back
And i'm sorry
Yes i apologize
If i could
Yes i'd turn it other wise
No , we can't turn back time
Through this hate
My careness for you can't shine
I'm sorry again
I'll be here
When you need me then
Aug 2014 · 427
Another tragedy
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
All these fights surrounding my family
Another day , oh god , another tragedy
All I need is a remedy
My little sister calls please play with me
While the tears go down her face , oh it's killin' me
Aug 2014 · 466
Summertime sadness
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
These lonely nights remind me of you
The dark sky full of bright stars
Reminds me of everything I went through
In these streets the crashing cars
The blood , the death , the soul that flew
In the heaven with a body full of scars
What would you do if you knew
That the one who took my life , is you
Aug 2014 · 477
Mountains high
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
Black clouds , grey smoke of fire
Fast white river flowing in this blue sea
It's that one person I admire
The one person , who holds the key
That lock , closing my soul
This ticking clock , and this changing weather
Makes me think that the lie is "forever"
Aug 2014 · 636
Oh my
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
Broken into pieces , my heart
Those things of you , i never knew
Left alone in the dark
I never thought they were true
Everything you say
Every game you play
If i'd have you here , forever
Nothing better , you and me
Together
The weather
Colder than ever
Snow falls , white pure
Nowhere near
Your black heart
Drowning myself in the ocean
Getting too deep
I cant breath
And my heart skips a beat
Here and there
Despair
Things we never share
No one's here to blame
But everyone's here to claim
They're the best
But it ain't pure blood
Running through their veins
Cause they truly **** with their hands
This is not a safe haven
Murdered with no mercy
No one to share this heaven
Lonely in this town
Only to get me down
Lovely it is truly
Everything reminds me of us
Breathless
For some seconds
And i'm sorry for the ****** things
that you've done
I tried to apologize
Long before you were gone
In this time , this fragile line
These tears of mine
These lines that rhyme
This suicide a crime
These dreams dead to me
These things that  were not
Meant to be
Drunk and high
This lovely night sky
This perfect time to die
If death comes , wipe tears
Never cry
For the truth that lies
For this very last breath of my
My tired lungs
For this voice of mine , too shy
Too scared , it's shaking
That's why
Oh my
Goodbye
Aug 2014 · 558
This half soul of mine
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
Beauty beyond compare
You have no love to spare
I hate it , but you no longer care
I lost you
I dreamt everyday
What do you do today
I've tried to get you back
I've tried every way
Falling from the roof
Of that lonely place , I call home
I've changed , you need proof
I need dope
Getting high
My neck in a rope
This ocean blue
I have not a single clue
Where you are , what you need
That hatred surrounding you
Is scary indeed
I'm not at all pleased
I wanna have your presence
Rather than your absence
Hold my hand
As I fall in this lake
But I know you don't feel guilty
For that mess you make
How many hearts you break
Please
Leave me alone
You getting my sanity
Away
Sweetie , your eyes taste good
But don't play
I know I can't get you off my head
I can only get you dead
But that's not a threat
How can I lose my soul?
Aug 2014 · 789
The death for me
Blendi Pajaziti Aug 2014
The sun goes down
To the world , i made my own
In this garden
Flowers myself has grown
The moon shines
The colours in my heart
Of all kinds
This rainbow of darkness
Lies somewhere there
In that place nobody cares
Don't you dare
**** me
Play that game
All that pain just for you
It's that lame
Leavin' , it's what you do
In these windows i stare still
In those dreams you ****
Falling to the ground
Deep inside earth
Some graves , not to be found
Though , pretty sure
You're my only cure
These drugs , oh i'm so addicted
To you , i'm gettin high
I wish insane
You didnt guide me
This was so plain
Untill you lied me
So often , too hard
On the table
All these cards
Hearts?
Not available
For this love
I cared so much

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