It's only when
you are in the other room
realize how much you love her.

Stings you the pain
sinks you the gloom
the void seems impassably far.

You wish could walk back to her
cover the space  with a run
look her eyes' dying star
plant there a risen sun.

The other room chills your bone
cripples you with fear
here you are terribly alone
with the hatch shut forever.

Pause before that long distance
where love meets its doom
for hardly is a second chance
once you enter the other room.

I remember the last day,
The last day I looked you
In the eyes

I remember the last day
You smiled and laughed at
What I said

I remember the last day
I heard the sound of your voice and the touch
Of your skin against mine

Oh how the last day of my happiness ended,
It haunts me
Every night
Every day

I feel lost
Without your love

6-25-15

You didn't love me, you just loved the thought of someone loving you

With you I was in love with
Blinded by the endless rows of others
Believing that I was the problem
The problem was I couldn't see
Never did I realize that it was you

All this time you were the comfort I preferred
The smile I favoured
The green eyes I thought of
And the one I was in love with

I had you behind the tag " best friend"
It's not that I wanted you there
It's just I thought you belonged there
It only felt right that you were there

Then I messed up, and you left
Crushed doesn't even begin to explain it
Breathing became uneasy
Living became unbearable
And when you returned
My lungs were now fulfilled with air
Because without you I couldn't breathe

I had to tell you, so you wouldn't leave again
That's it's always been you
I've always loved just you
That your smile was my favorite
And your green orbs kept up at night

And when I finally let it slip
You sighed in relief
Because all this time you knew
It was you.

The day I got away from you, was the day I cried with joy.
No more being thrown around, like a ragged ole' toy.
No more bruises, no more tears, no more living with these old fears.

You left me broken, you left me bruised, alone and abused.
My pain and blood, only left you nothing but amused.
your evil words splattered on my face, still remain all over the place.

Words never forgotten, words that still linger today.
Bruises and tears, that can never be erased away.
You were my worst nightmare, and the cause of my broken self.
Now it has left me crying for help.