I long for the day.
I can wake up.
Without longing for you.
Please.
I can't take anymore.
Mornings with tears in my eyes.
Because.
I couldn't roll over and look at yours.
Looking into mine.

Leave my memories.

A.F.

I painted you to be perfect.
In my mind.
You were my artwork.
One wrong brush stroke.
And you could be ruined.
Everything could be ruined.
You turned out much different.
I painted ever so carefully.
You painted outside of the lines.
You've made a mess of yourself.

A.F.

I remember crying over you.
I'm not talking a few tears and I'm blue.
I'm talking collapsing and screaming at the moon.

A.F.

It's pathetic.
How quick it ended.
How there was so much feeling.
Then there was nothing.

I asked what I did wrong.
You say nothing.
You say, it's me not you.
What a joke.

You ache in my bones.
Yet you run like a school boy.
I could tell I loved you.
I think you could too.

You're terrified.
But so am I.
You say you're not ready.
But that's just a sweet lie.

You were here.
You wanted this.
I blinked for 2 seconds.
You were gone in a instance.

I miss you.

A.F.

Where were you?
As a little girl I searched.
I wondered.
I could see you.
But I never knew you.

Dad, where were you?
Why couldn't you protect me?
Why couldn't I be your princess?
Maybe I should've been a boy.
Maybe I'd matter.

I could never be anyone.
But a part of you.
But it never mattered.
You are never here.
Why are you never here?

My father, the stranger.
I blame myself.
But how can it be my fault?
How can I relate?
I don't know a **** thing.

Who's fault is it?
Not mine.
You didn't give me time.
You couldn't even be a dad.
How sad is that?

A.F.

I've yet to forget your presence.
How wonderful you made me feel.
How alive you made me feel.
You lit a fire inside of me.
A fire that has yet to die.
I cannot bare the thoughts.
The endless memories trapped inside me.
You've captured me.
You are the worst addiction.
I cannot bare this feeling.
Endless feelings.
You've left me here.
No care in the world.
You've left me here alone.
You knew what it'd do to me.

You knew.

A.F.

The wind is blowing
My hair flowing behind me
Ive never smelt anything more beautiful
Spring is finally here
Sweet spring, is finally here
I've missed you so dearly
Never leave me
I couldn't bare another cold winter alone
I'd miss you so
Sweet spring, never go.

A.F.