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Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I'm already so wasted,
Get me something new and I'll taste it !!!!
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
My heart is full of desire,
But instead he chooses Beatrice Prior.
Love Theo James
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
My heart once frail,
And used,
Tied in chains of hopelessness and ambiguity,
Found what it was looking for,
It was you all this time,
The one I never tried to connect it with,
Deep cuts covering on this slender
and deranged soul,
My eyes beady with tears once,
Shedding,
Now cease at the corners as I try to let them flow,
I guess its just you,
But now I'm sure.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Walking down the hallway,
Its my first day,
I feel alienated,
As well as irritated,
I keep moving every year,
Sometimes here, sometimes there.

New friends, new house,
New appearance, new blouse,
New crush, new admirers,
New enemies, new fighters.

But this particular day i can never forget,
For i set my eyes on a particular someone i just met,
As he locked his eyes on me,
I blushed in response looking away ready to flea.
I move a lot. Like after every 1 or 2 years.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I need chocolate moose,
And some yummy soups,
So I can quinch my thirst,
Not by drinking though,
Just eating food.
I've gone crazy :')
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Cease my heart,
So I can stop my cravings of visiting the mart.
I'm so hungry GOD !!! What am I gonna do with you Mr tummy :'(
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I am so dumb,
I thought you changed.
And that you deserved a second chance.
But every time I trust you,
You break my trust !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
After spending days away from her,
Thinking I could resist her,
But now it's just her blood,
My throat aches for her blood !
Just a quinch of her blood and I can relax.
Her white skin,
Her hazel eyes,
And that scent !
Oh not the scent you're thinking about.
Her body odor.
It just drives me crazy.
I feel constrictions in my vein,
Making me wanna wail,
C'mon my love just a little of that blood,
I swear it'll finish the thirst !
Love vampires :')
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Four years have passed,
Changing seasons,
Falling leaves,

I remember that September,
That smile on my face,
When we both met,

I have never forgotten you ever since,
Your deep grey eyes,
Your perfect smile,

Our on going  conversations,
And never ending fights,
They were exquisite to me,

Then one day you left,
Shattering all my love and peace,
You were gone, just like that.

I cried my heart out,
But you never came back,
You see, you were everything to me.

One day you reconnected with me in hope of again,
Though it did not make me love thee,
For I lost the love and respect that I once had,

Regretting now what I had done,
I want you back,
Oh dear, please come back.

Calm my forgiving heart,
And we shall never depart,
Till death do us part.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2018
I surrender myself
and bend before You
for i know the sins I've done
and the distress i had to bear
I vehemently mend our bond
tying each loop end to end
i try to get closer to You
because if not You, then who?
I have uttered ghastly words in anger
i have made bad decisions in furry
yet i fall on my knees
and plead that You forgive me
I regret and write woeful ballads
for i seek Your eyes on me
for You to see my efforts
that i accept my wrongs and i fear Your potency.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
A slight feeling,
Rare it is,
For me I mean,
To envy and resent,
To forbid others entry,
It is the love and possession,
That my heart pleads me,
Not let others enter my eternity,
A paradox it is,
For me I mean.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2016
A quixotic paradox,
Sinking me into utopia,
Unimaginable occurrences,

Learnt and observed,
No one warns you about the amount of heart breaks and dishevels in growth,
An irreparable ache,

A void untouched,
Scarred and defoliating on its outer core,
Turns into dust n' ash, subsequently,

An aggression of pain,
A collective group of insane,
Ludicrous and high on looped smoke,

Torture,
Vexated and erred,
Dropping slowly in abyss and isolation.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
The sparkle on your face,
Your pulchritudinous, melting eyes
dissolve me in their depth,
Your smile resplendent
alluring me wholly,
My eyes glisten with every tear that you shed,
Because for me you're a dime,
An enchanting, enthralling persona you have,
Habitual am I
drowning in the deepness of your love,
Though, unexpected and untold,
I still love you.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2018
I soar freely in midair
I drift the blue sky with the sun blazing
And go where the route takes me,

My destination comes at halt
Where the sea and the horizon meet
And aloof, I absorb the energy from the breeze, relieved.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jan 2016
[Intro]

I see you everyday,
You sitting on the curb,
Making a sudden burst,
My heart beats with your pace,
I need you back in my arms,
From death to destiny !

[Verse]

I see you moving with the wind,
Blowing ashes that sway in the midst,
Dust,
flutters with the storm,
Zigzag it is,
Love broken,
Heart sinks,
My eyes blink,
Tears stream linearly,
Preferably involuntarily,
Stop !
I scream for you to say
as you wipe this pain,
kiss my lips and take me away,
Forever there,
In a farther place,
Where just you and me
live in tranquility,
You to me are everything,
So pretty please,
Stay with me.

[Chorus]

I see you everyday,
You sitting on the curb,
Making a sudden burst,
My heart beats with your pace,
I need you back in my arms,
From death to destiny !

[Verse]

I close my eyes,
Imagine you touching me,
Softly you kiss me,
Passionately you hug me,
You're a saint to me,
A sculptured piece,
Carved beautifully,
You are my treasure chest,
Full of jewels and riches,
Red as blood,
Flowing through your body like royalty,
My antique,
Embroidered,
captivating me,
Come to me baby,
And I'll keep you safe,
And shielded for eternity,
My soul,
My once upon a dream.

[Chorus]

I see you everyday,
You sitting on the curb,
Making a sudden burst,
My heart beats with your pace,
I need you back in my arms,
From death to destiny !

[Verse]

My fairy tale,
My dream come true,
Please come to me,
Forgive me,
Lift me,
And envelope me in your embrace,
Block my fears,
And love me in haste,
Give us another chance,
Don't you miss me,
Don't you remember the first time our hands touched,
The electricity and the elevation of my heart,
Beating fervently,
Our gasping breaths,
And synchronized stroke,
Sending goosebumps everywhere,
You're as beautiful as the sunset,
And as scenic as the rivers streaming,
Paradox I am,
Tired I am of crying,
Come to me,
And reconnect in this unison.

[Outro]

I see you everyday,
You sitting on the curb,
Making a sudden burst,
My heart beats with your pace,
I need you back in my arms,
From death to destiny !
Song #3
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Frustration was killing me from the inside,
My organs rupturing,
Out of control I was,
Roped by my wrists confined in,
I was disguised to extreme,
Hiding me to stop,
Vexation arises,
Making me **** mice,
Mice which scurry away from me,
One, dead,
Two, dead,
Three-
fled,
What the heck !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2016
A smile, a kiss a day,
Flushed cheeks, passion filled trance,
A complicated swoon drills in emotion,
A love so vast,
So preciously encased-
Elevates the beating of my heart,
Encages me in this beautiful romance,
A sense of infliction, a recurring obsession,
I tremble at each flashback,
With tears of joy and a twitch full of remembrance,
Replenished sincerity,
A proudness' of you being my man,
Being without you, I can't stand!
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
Your reluctant nature,
My saddened smile,
Our expressions synchronized,

Our relationship has taken a lot to repair,
Because of your ignorant attitude,
And my eagerness of not having to wait,

This relationship is one sided,
That's what I'll say,
Because lately I see no spark,

Your hesitant self,
My deliberateness,
Opposite of sane,

Nothing makes sense anymore,
Neither the way you talk,
Nor the way you say that you love me,

Let's give it a break,
See others and analyze what the distance will say,
Because it will resolve all the issues either making us stay or not.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
My eyes closed,
I walk down the deep and unknown hole,
With our hands clasped,
Your kisses send shudders from my neck to my back,
Love is definitely blind,
My heart accepting you whom I once despised,
Your touch and your smile,
Oh so fine,
I'm somehow okay with what we have,
For now lets see what's next,
Because this very instance you're mine,
Wow I must be paralyzed to have said yes,
To someone not my type,
Okay fine, I'll just say one last time,
I am ready to try,
And to see what it feels like.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2016
Startled and horrified by society,
A silhouette of a petrified soul crumples in the darkest corner of the night,
In tears and remorse,
With slit arms and blood flowing through each wound,
Droplets of tears and blood drip, forming a pool of water n' rust,
The scars on her heart deepen and stain her body,
The dark circles under her pale eyes, moist,
An urge to smoke or drink escapes her lips as a sigh,
Not caring about what's harmful and what's not,
Just a sip or a puff of smoke can shackle all her hurt,
Vandalized from within,
Completely shut and worn out-
Thanks to one mistake they take her innocence away,
An unforgetful dread, a frightful nightmare!
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2016
Contouring each cheek bone,
Defining each bump,
With exquisiteness you were made,

A color palette used to make those beautiful eyes,
With your creamy white skin,
Emerald lenses were made that incremented your beauty,

Your hair so brown,
Fall on your face,
With your tone they reflect your appearance,

Each and every part of you-
Was made with such tenderness,
You were made with such love,

The power of surgeries,
The usage of makeup,
Or any other thing cannot make you perfect,

If God has made you this way,
Maybe you're tempting and attractive this way,
So why change yourself and fiddle with His gift?
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Words unspoken,
Lips sealed,
Heart beats fast.

As he comes close the world stopped for a second,
Felt like  heaven ,
Spaces filled,
All the pain and distance faded.

Blood stoped flowing could it be?
Not sure until he hugged,

Love and compassion filled,
That was it !

It felt like the earth was shaking,
Like we were standing under the spotlight,
Yes it was love,

It felt like we were floating,
How beautiful it felt,
Until,
It all shattered.

Heart perplexed,
Eyes filled with tears,
Nothing was the same.

He was gone,
Gone like the wind.
All their left were memories,
Memories of the one who got away !
People always leave !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2015
I've been neglecting you ever since,
Trying to tell myself that you and I don't belong together,
You're so eager and keen,
You try to come and sweep my feet off the ground,
Trying to dazzle me with your sparkly eyes,
Don't know what's pulling me towards you,
Perhaps it gravity,
But I am trying hard not to fill the space between us.
You know what they say,
Gravity pulls a body towards its center,
And now I think you're my center,
Pulling me towards you,
Whilst I try to keep distant.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Nail polish
Hair tonic
Make me all the more
Dazzling,
Reducing my wrinkles,
Losing some weight,
Maintains my body shape,
I may be old
And frail,
But one things for sure,
I'll never be
Unpraised.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I'm confined to my house,
Until the day I realise
my fault,
But then again,
I have no fault.
I only said, 'I need a break',
Is that so hard to
take?
You can be all fake,
And if I make
a mistake,
Then my life's on stake,
You think life's
a piece of cake ?
Well, honey the answer to
this question is 'no',
Now please growup for heaven's sake !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jun 2016
Stuck in the dark for so long-
Helpless now she lets her demons guide.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
My weak heart withers-
As you flee leaving me hurt,
My heart sad, aches.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
I incessantly-
Roam in the huge desert alone,
For intake of water.

The mirage I see-
Gleams in distant calling,
Pleading for intake,

The harsh, sandy storm-
In the Sahara alone,
I walk unafraid.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2015
That feeling trapped-
Deep in the core of my heart,
I feel it arise.

Goosebumps are felt,
Down my spine and up my back,
Trail marks behind.

Leaving me in shock,
My heart beat being stopped,
My eyes can't halt.

What is it about you ?
That makes it so uneasy,
And so hard to cease.
Love at first sight maybe.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
Its your day my love,
Look out of your window and you see the sun,
Blooming its radiant rays as bright as ever,
You're so special to me,
Your touch and caress so important,
Your heart beats with my touch,
As I feel it envelope me in its loving self,
Baby, its your birthday,
Hope you have many more,
With me beside you,
As everyday that passes,
You grow old with me,
And that I die bearing your name,
I love you, darling,
And I will love you infinite.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
You're quite far from me,
My heart calls for thee,
Through the rustling leaves and the wind blowing,
I send you my love,

The particles of love,
Carried across the meadows,
In search of you,
Soon it'll find you and you'll feel the warmth of my hug,

I love you a lot,
Not only on this day,
You're something special to me,
That I'll savor for the rest of my life.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2016
Stars collide,
Meteors crash,
Planets revolve,
The galaxy swirls in circular motion,

Just like that,
My heart swipes left and right,
Trying to ease and calm a bit,
But how can I be so patient ?

They ask me why,
I say he's the reason why,
The sparkle in my eyes and smile on my face,
It's all because he's rather near.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2017
How hard is it to make you understand-
the risks I take,
the things I have to bear,

I really don't know how to please you;
whether to ignore or not,
You have no idea how hard it is,

Putting up with others accusations;
criticism amd rumors so remorseful,
yet you only see what I haven't done,

Wish I could make you understand-
that how much you mean to me,
because that is all that matters to me.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
They said,
     ' All you've ever done is destruction.'
                             I frown
                    at this statement.
   'All I've ever done in my life is  nothing.
                    I sleep, eat and then
                         again I sleep.'
                             They said,
             'Well that's not quite true.'
                                 I sigh,
                      'Whatever dude !'
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
In this deserted Island,
Where I currently reside,
I move in haste,
So I could runaway,
From all this crazy haze.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2015
A painful headache-
Can be cured by a pill,
Two or three maybe.
My head hurts like hell GOD !!!!
Meds ain't workinggggh urghhhh....
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jun 2019
Parched lips sip at the rejoice of true love
Sheltering unto the embarks of greatness;
A beautiful journey- oblivious to heartbreak.
Intrigued by gleamy eyes, wet from crying-
Tears for hoax love,
The heart shatters at the sight of each tear drop
One kiss my dear and all pain shall go away.
There was something about the way he smiled
The way his body flexed with each move,
O how divine!
But it wasn't just his body i liked, it was his soul
Or atleast that's what i thought too.
Took me long to know of his deceitful facade;
And his false love
He was not what he claimed to be
He was but a monster in disguise, a true depiction of what we call a casanova.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
I vow to that day,
If I ever found you somewhere,
Devastated and hurt,
I'd come and console you before you break in tears

This was the promise you made,
Now look where it took us,
You fled away,
Leaving me to myself in tears,

I will love you forever,
Till the day I stay,
Never will I let a drop fall,
Because you are my life forever more

If this was your definition of everlasting love,
Then I'd rather shove all of it away,
Find myself somewhere else,
Hiding myself in a dark place,

I will always support you no matter what,
Never will you receive any sorrow,
You are precious to me,
And you're my eternity,*

These were the last lines I ever remember,
The next thing I remember is you left,
Breaking all promises you never kept,
My mental and physical pain you should know is because of you and your ***** little lies that I embraced
The italic highlights are his words.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2016
The aching pain in my ligaments,
The harsh deprivation my heart fears,
Uplifted by this bizarre weight I vent-
What is it that your heart says, my dear ?
Through your conscience you confabulate me,
Fuming love, celeste touch, lingered plea,
Withered and scraped from the deep blue sea,
Waves flow in haste rapidly and free,
Sanity strikes me hard digging in,
Silent echoes trail and haunt me freely,
Pulchritude disguise shows all my sin,
Clarity beyond replete seen mildly,
Recalcitrant yet powerful eases dive-
Plunging downward and gliding to thrive.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Take my arm and let it slit,
Let the blood flow in bits,
Take my body away and add it in a list,
The list of those who have fallen into abyss.

I may have ruined my wrists,
Cutting deep in the presence of a wist,
Crying and screaming in this mist
But nothing in this world is worth a miss.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Standing farthest away,
Listening and synchronizing with every echo I hear,
The exalted valley,
And scattered masses,
Mosses and ferns,
Roses along the gulf,
Dandelions amidst the horizon,
Flying away,
The voyage of the cloud,
And the journey of a wave,
As deep and shallow like a lightning ray,
The radiance of a flower,
The incandescent light,
The proximity of time,
The speed of sound,
The piercing heat,
Beyond this world,
In the universe you may see,
Afar the moon and the planets,
Diffused in might,
Ignition of fire,
The sharp blue and yellow color,
Wandering in the field,
Surrounding me,
Here I stand beneath a tree,
Breathing the smoky air,
Perhaps suffocating,
Without a soul to save me
Her
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Her
The drizzling rain,
Walking with a cane,
An old man narrates his story,
How he had met a young lady.

He was a business man in his time,
Who owned a salt mine.
He was quite  successful,
But not blissful.

Then one day he came across a woman,
She was as beautiful as a swan,
Who wore a dress in fawn,
She was ravishing.

She walked with such grace,
That could allure a man in different ways,
Her voice so calm,
Could evict a man in its trance.

He met her there,
It was a fine day,
He had manned up and went to her,
He asked her out.

That night,
He drove her around in the city of lights,
Every time she laughed,
His heart would stop.

He met her gaze,
All he could see was a young and strong woman,
Alone in this world full of cruel people,
Causing pain and talking insane.

In a few days,
He saw himself walking down the aisle,
With this woman in white.
He felt so delighted and lucky.

On 29 August 1986,
He called her at a park,
Where he was going to pop the question.
He was waiting for her arrival.

Suddenly the phone rang,
He answered the call,
He had just said hello,
Only then he realised it wasnt her call.

He started to weep,
As he ran down the parking lot,
He had got another call.
She was gone !

The old man hadn't stopped loving her.
He would go to the cemetery daily,
Sitting beside her grave he would talk to her.
She was the only woman he had ever yearned for.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I wrote a new rap,
Which is so bad that you won't clap.

What's more sad is that,
It's worse than bad !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jul 2016
He said
'This craziness about him will **** you'
but little did he know
I was already half dead!

He said
'Brace yourself and love those who care'
Had he not seen the extremity of my love
How piercing and painfully it cuts through?

He said
'There's no point of waiting'
It may feel like a year without rain
But nothing is impossible.
Tribute to my crush <3
Him
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Him
My life.....
Sigh !
'What about it ?'
He asked.

I hesitantly opened my mouth.
Couldn't say a word,
So shut it again.
'What about it?'

I finally said, 'I don't know.'
He narrowed his gaze on me.
'I want to know !', he ordered.
All I saw was his eyes.

So grey.
So, so,
Full of concern,
And love for me.

I  began.
'My life is complete because of you.'
He smiled at me.
I blushed  and quickly looked away.

He took my hand in his.
And said,
'You are my life, my everything.'
Those we're the only words I longed to hear.

Then the day after that,
It all shattered.
He left me heart broken,
And guilty.

How I regret my doings,
I wish I had a time machine,
So I could go back and undo things,
To start a new life !
Him
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Him
All hail His majesty,
For He will not only diminish misery,
But also help His people in tragedy.

Believe Him, I say,
And don't let my word go astray,
I am one of His disciples till He takes my body away.

All hail His majesty,
For He will not only diminish misery,
But also help His people in tragedy.
God is the best. I seek peace in his path.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2015
Memorizing dates,
Events too in sequence,
So hectic and painful,
I feel hopeless,
And feel like tearing the book in half,
Please do it for me.
Exams and history way too much pain.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2017
I thought that if I'd go in depths,
Extract out all my emotions,
Spill words and pain on a paper,
I'd feel my pain fade away,

I thought if I was alone,
If I was hurt and my soul, remorseful,
I could write a few words of love and abhor,
The ache would subside and fill up my hearts emptiness,

I thought that if you were away,
If i was inexpressible,
I could feel adrenaline rush in my brain,
To exterminate the distance that's keeping us away,

Lately, I thought a lot about us,
About him, as he too is away,
Then my family and her, also distant,
So I wrote down this poem to feel better, but still I feel dead from inside because I'm so faraway!
Being away from home and the people you love is an awful nightmare!
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
You have always been my first and last intention,
The way you first set your eyes on me,
Oh so memorable was that day !

Our first conversations ended in such regret,
You were leaving and I was way too late to confess,
But we both strengthened that connection from falling apart,

The way you talk to me,
You make the whole situation feel wrong in so many ways,
You escalate my heart beat and comfort me,

I feel my heart burning,
I can feel our love yearning and progressing,
With every breath and word you utter I know I feel at home.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Crawling down the alley-
Scared not to wake the evil,
He set his way home.
There's no place as safe as home.
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