There's no place such as home,
The comfort and privacy in your room,
The ease in your bed,
The peace in not sharing,
So convenient to go without waiting,
In your own washroom.

Heart dysfunction's,
Blood flows avid,
Heart beats static,
No feelings,
No desires,
Obscure memories wake me up from my slumber,
My jolty heart feels pained,
Broken and deprived of love,
Longing for a soul,
I adhere all shunned bonds,
Collect all the pieces from my past,
And connect them together,
But the distance between these chains seem to increment,
I lose myself in this lonesome journey,
Pulling me down in remorse,
Fallen in abyss-
I stand strong,
Accepting all the challenges that are being thrown towards me,
My faith in God,
And the kind of oppression I receive from society,
Where people; that once mortified me,
Stand no chance,
Because now I know,
My strength and courage cannot disappoint me, ever.

We're so far off,
Seems to me like we're seven sea's away,
Half way the globe but we still stay,
And hope we do forever,
Entangled in eachother's arms.

I could not have been more sure about my feelings,
Until the day you and I began,
I knew for sure that it has always been you,
The one whom I have been waiting for,
You came in my life, like a bolt swifty taking all of me away;
Piece by piece,
I knew from the start that you would change my life,
I prayed for the day to come where God gives you a chance to prove to my family about your worth,
About the love that you have for me,
Our promises were not just put in words,
I carved each and every bit of detailed conversations we had to my heart,
I know you are my other half,
And I know that it's only you i want.

I find peace only in your arms,
The love that i embrace,
The caress and compassion it takes,
What a heavenly feeling,

Your abhor, your love,
All yield the same outcome,
My soul doesn't take no for an answer,
I can wait for you a month, a year and even a century if that what it takes.

As I leap forward to touch
I pull myself in danger and terror
like the forbidden tree
I enter into a forbidden trance

A place where only desire resides
where hands are restless and reach for love
where bodies arouse
I enter into a forbidden trance

A mixture of feelings and emotions
a wave of fear that sweeps off the smile from my face
i touch my finger tips to yours and caress you
I enter into a forbidden trance

The thought of loss petrifies me
your soul conquers me
it is you that I yearn for knowing the consequences
I enter into a forbidden trance.

As I leap forward to touch
I pull myself in danger and terror
like the forbidden tree
I enter into a forbidden trance

A place where only desire resides
where hands are restless and reach for love
where bodies arouse
I enter into a forbidden trance

A mixture of feelings and emotions
a wave of fear that sweeps off the smile from my face
i touch my finger tips to yours and caress you
I enter into a forbidden trance

The thought of loss petrifies me
your soul conquers me
it is you that I yearn for knowing the consequences
I find myself entering a forbidden trance.

Oh my fragile heart
I feel paralyzed in this demise,

With the blink of an eye
Waves and tides rise
Eroding the soil
The island's with canopies
Sink in the depth,

Just like that
My eyes pour tears
Moisturizing my dark circles
That now seem grooved
Pain and despair drowns me as each tear leaves the eye,

Oh my fragile heart
I feel paralyzed in this demise.

His eyes-
So deep, so powerful,
It causes a raging tempest,

His disastrous heart,
So enticing,
Piece by piece it enthralls me completely,

His voice,
So breathtaking,
It paralyzes me whenever he speaks,

His soul,
So dark, so evil,
Attracts me though hurts me,

Whenever I see him,
My heart skips a beat,
Because every time we speak he melts me internally.

If only I was superman,
Not needing to consult others on my plan,
I could fly anywhere I want,
Away from all these flaunts,

Reminding people what it feels to be pained,
Eliminating a sense of vain,
Reviving people from danger,
Better than all those egositic and procrastinating rangers,

That's going to be me,
I know its hard as it seems,
But, believe it or not,
I will never be a rot !

The belongingness in your eyes
the cherished blossoms and sunflowers
touch of caress
and blooming orchids
spread the meadows of love,

In tinted sun
intensity ablaze's sparks in my heart
like waves
crests and troughs form along
un-steadying my heart beat,

Scent of jasmines and tulips
disperse with the wind
your soul here somewhere
detects its whereabouts
and connects with my sixth sense,

Like tides
it rises
and carries away left over residue
cleanses the hate away
replacing only love.

If only I could fly to mars,
And embrace the title ”First teenager to set foot on mars',
I'd set an example for my peers that nothing can stop us from doing wonders,

If only I had money,
I'd build an orphanage,
And educate every kid to lead a comfortable life,

If only I had power,
I'd stand as a representative,
And improve and lead our nation towards betterment,

If only I had guts,
I'd go and take part in wars to exterminate terrorism,
Rather than sitting here and writing my heart out.

If only i could distinguish between love and hate,
If only i could differentiate between what is and isn't,

I'd say I lack the ability to set apart,
Things may seem right but they aren't,
All seems sane but it's not,
Its the eye of optimism that blinds reality;
that covers all the lies,

If only i could distinguish between love and hate,
If only i could differentiate between what is and isn't,

My way of handling,
My way of bearing;
It's just not satisfying,
I should be the one to make my own decisions,
But I'm now only dependent on others,

If only i could distinguish between love and hate,
If only i could differentiate between what is and isn't,

I'm so under control,
I can't defy my taker;
Can't take my own steps,
I am frail,
I am a woman, so that is what society has to say,

If only i could distinguish between love and hate,
If only i could differentiate between what is and isn't,

My power to nurture,
My power to assemble;
It's nothing compared to what's being said about me or any other that can relate,
I am best at what I do,
Yet I'm weak to pave away,

If only i could distinguish between love and hate,
If only i could differentiate between what is and isn't.

I cling towards you,
Says my infatuation,
I sheepishly smile towards you,
Says my brain,
Unconsciously my heart starts racing with the sight of you,
Says my heart,
My love forever that I cherish,
Will defeat anyone that hurts you,
My deviant soul,
My searching eyes,
All flee towards you,
But it is you my love,
Who doesn't love me.

Disregardless of what he said,
I'm going to bed !

As I spill droplets of ink on my pages,
As I take a stroll down memory lane,
As I make everyday a joyous day,
I will still say,
I have a dream,

As I connect with my thoughts,
As I sail beyond the horizon of this world,
As I make each and everyday count
I will still say,
I have a dream,

As the wind blows in extreme,
As the meadows afar my country call for me,
As the conscience in my head communicates with me,
I will still say,
I have a dream.

In the alley I stood,
Lurking behind a pillar,
Leaning to see if someone would
come.
Unknown people passed by,
Smoking cigarettes,
Illuminating lights,
On the corner I waited for that one person,
Navigating his whereabouts through a GPS,
S**adly he had already passed  by.

I love your touch,
Your delicious scent,
The aroma of your perfume that seducts me,
Your kisses thrill me,
When I'm with you I feel secure,
I feel shielded,

Your love,
Your delicious scent,
The aroma of your perfume that seducts me,
Your lips as they brush my neck,
As they nibble my ear,
Allure me and make me restless,

Your love,
Your delicious scent,
The aroma of your perfume that seducts me,
Your mellifluous voice sing me lullabies to sleep,
Ease I feel when I'm near you,
As your everything comforts me.

I will keep in my mind,
From the very day you stop talking to me,
I will assume we're done,

I just can't take more heart break,
Neither do i have the guts to give you a chance,
I'm far too weak to listen to you blab.

Five minutes, six minutes, seven minutes pass,
Tick tock, the clock moves faster,
I don't remember anything,
But pain,
When I wake up after several hours I feel strong,
As I put my hand on the mailbox to get up,
'Crunch'
I hear a sound,
Quickly drawing my hand away,
It cannot be,
I crushed the mailbox,
Bewildered and shocked,
I stare at my hands,
How can this be?
I think to myself I'm sleeping,
I close my eyes and open them again,
I see it right there on the side walk,
The crushed mailbox,
I rub my hands on my nape,
Sweet mother of roses,
Gradually it all starts coming to me,
I was bit by a vampire,
I am immortal.....

My situation so disabled,
My heart beats with every tear that rolls down my cheek,
My eyes swollen from the scars which are unhealed,
My life's a mess,

My soul aches only for the constrictions in my heart to cease,
I hope one day they do,
The day I seek freedom from all the mishaps,
The ups and downs that sum up the pain in my life,

The sorrow and woe in my heart,
I hope that the hatred that developed in those hearts,
The hearts of whom I care about, which are fragile,
Exterminates this instant,

I'm tired of the accusations I get to hear,
For the things I didn't do,
And for the things that still remain,
Am I not a human?

Is that so hard for you to digest?
My mistakes are my learning experience,
I maybe wrong but one thing I know is I'm not perfect,
I have my flaws.

Pain over rules all
Regretful of my past, present and future
What is it with life?
People talk about ups and downs
Reminiscing your scars only aches
No sign of healing nor strength
Once so equiped with words
So sure of what to say,
Of what to write
Now, no more
It is not only actions but the impact of words
How you get pulled into abyss
How you're forced into isolation
Words are what matter
They compel you to think
They take you to places and touch your soul
Either poignantly or intimately
It is the impact of words
The harsh and crudeness in them
The hurtful things that you hear
They can take away all of you!

In a few days,
Months even,

Someday I'll forget you,
A** while it'll take,
Damn I miss you already.

I have become what you can't embrace
a silent killer yet in decay
someone who gradually prevails justice
through words in earnest ways
someone who lurks in isolation
who lives in darkness
soaring the sky like a nightingale  
although insane yet in decay
death making my way
fighting extremes and progressions
still i falter and fade away.

Feels like just yesterday
i realized my presence, a shadow
i merely let this shadow conquer me
i let my voice stay within myself, regardless of my rights
i let people manipulate me

i hid my feelings
i stopped my tears
i remained aloof from my heart
never understood what it was trying to convey
just listened to my brain, how selfish

i am what i was 8 years ago
dead from within
distant from sorrow and reckless with my heart
my soul cold and resistant to words of love
in actual i am reliving my past, have been and always will!

One, two, three......
and so on,
I've been eating chocolates since the rise of dawn.
This new series has messed up my routine,
I spend all day in my room hardly seen.
My parents remind me that I need to change,
But me? I'm out of range.
Mommy, daddy I need a break,
It's summer so let me do what I want to do for heaven's sake !
                    *Smack

Those who are deceased,
Leave this world in peace,
Well some at least,

Tears of abhor shed down the eyes of the families,
For those terrorists who come in vengeance,
I wonder for what?

Wouldn't it be great if only there was tranquility worldwide,
Or in fact leaders who mobilize attacks against these savages,
I pity our lives and souls of those who don't cry,

How hard can it be to realize,
That taking away lives is so low,
Please God ! Help these people deviate from wrong to right.

Her devotion was very obvious,
She had made endless efforts to reach at this point,
She was a beautiful women,
Learning and teaching about life to others,
Her quotation are splendid,
They are so precious,
She has taught many a lesson,
Though obscure but, motile,
How surreal it was,
Her life muddled up,
Though ups and downs may seem good,
But she was obstinate,
Never did she wait,
Her death spread gloom,
But her name may never decay...

I let go of my demons.
For a while now, i feel free and safe
I am more than who i was before
Yet there's this urge for wanting more
To explore who I am
I feel the need to find out who i am?
Why does my heart want more when i have enough?
Its not lust, it's not greed
Its something that's more darker than before-
I'm insatiable.

Singing songs of victory,
For I have passed with dignity :p

The sleepless nights,
The isolation that dwells upon my soul,
The shallow and emptiness in my heart,
The pain I am in,
The tears that stream down my eyes,
Why don't you see the hurt in my broken smile,
My insides are crushing and pulling me in their depths,
This is unfair,
I really deserve my rights,
My mouth speaks against with such intensity,
But somehow can't address what I want to say,
I'm cursed with such cruelty,
I will avenge my fate and get what I want.

I thought that the pain had ceased,
I thought that I was healing,
Like the scars that once marked my body,
Or the memories that once haunted me every night before I slept, they were no more,
But I guess I was wrong,
I mistook my feelings,
I was broken through and through,
I was still drenched in abyss,
My heart still ached and regretted of letting go,
Whatever song I hear,
Whatever I read,
Whatever I watch,
All it leads me to is you,
You're the root cause of all my failures and my hurt,
My soul seeks only your presence,
My comfort, my stability,
You weaken the chains in my heart that were once strong,
Now they just rust on the edge and fall apart in a millionth piece,
I thought that the pain had ceased,
I thought that I was healing,
But I guess I was wrong,
It's all melancholy that has me going on and on,
Though, hope that's kept me calm for so long.

Knowing my remorseful memories haunt me,
Pain so excruciating pales me,
Silhouettes of my soul dance across me,
As i try to make each day special,
My faith reaches its epitome,
Mourning and fighting death,
I provoke myself to survive,
To keep from falling-
in this ocean of vain.

It was him
It was the honesty in his eyes
The integrity and beauty of his heart-
That could mend my oh so broken heart
Fill up my scars and calm my troubled soul,

It was the way that he smiled at me
The way that he would say 'i love you'
It was the power in these words-
That could mend my oh so broken heart
Fill up my scars and calm my troubled soul,

It was his sincerity
His showered love for me
And his affection for me-
That could mend my oh so broken heart
Fill up my scars and calm my troubled soul.

From life I've learnt,
I've learnt how to live my dream,
To procure every chance or opportunity that comes to me,
I've learnt to face all challenges and not breakdown in the middle,

To stay strong,
To be smart and work hard,
Life has taught so much,
It has taught me how to value my time and infuse myself into it,

Life is an excursion,
A trip down to memory lane,
Oh how I recall my first step and how I coped my fear,
But if it weren't for my hard work I'd be standing nowhere near success.

Mentally broken,
Physically tired I am,
Done with bearing peoples ****,
Done being treated like a kid,
Please call me to you,
Oh God !
I cannot bear their presence even a bit,
I feel the urge to slit my wrist,
Or either hang myself to a fan.

Grasping in my strength,
My courage seems to spark inside of me,
I need sane and peace-
a chance to be seen,
to be read,
and confided upon,

It's not me,
It's not my ego or temperament,
It's more complicated than this,
I want recalcitrant beliefs to be complete,
I want recognition-
so that people stand by my side,

I want to fight this war alone if I have to,
I don't want to see kids weep,
I don't want the needy to be unheard,
I want change-
prosperity and progression,
I want to be part of this deed,

I want not orphans to be insecure,
I don't want a petrified nation-
weak and restricted to do stuff in terms of fear,
I want to vandalize all walls of abhor-
I want to block out all these second thoughts,

If I have to stand up for my country-
fight for my land;
my soil and its blood,
I shall do so,
No one can stop me from being bold,
At least not threats as far as I'm concerned!

I dreamt last night of death,
I saw myself enslaved on the burdens of my sins,
The weightlessness of my virtue,
I saw before death the last tick of the clock-
But hopelessly I couldn't do nothing,
I prayed and cried for forgiveness,
Repented on my sins after my soul departed,
But I was too late,
I was already gone.

'Writing poetry is quite easy',
Says a stranger to me.
'Woah, woah ! Hold on there buddy,
We strive hard to pen it down,
You call it easy',
Said  I.
He said, ' What's there to do? Just rhyme.'
I said, ' If you think its so easy go ahead its a free country,
Show me what you got. Poetry is about soul,
Not about rhymes or writing songs.
It's an art and it should not be humiliated in such a way.'
After this he went blank.

You're my joy,
You're my life,
Oh baby you're my sugar and spice,
The reason behind this smile,
The blush that creeps right below my eyes,
That glistening touch of water,
These tears can't stop flowing,
They are tears of happiness,
Oh dear you're my possession,
My pride,
Everything about you is perfect,
Because you make each day so happy,
Guess I'll be spending an eternity with you.

Crimson and in crude form,
I lay amongst scattered bodies,
In ash and blood streams,
I drag myself away from this heart wrenching scene-
I bring myself out of this dream,
This dreadful dream, where only people lay restless,
I sequester myself from people,
I feel incomplete,
Pained and hurt,
Sore and scarred everywhere,
My heart feels weighed and lonely,
This was just a dream I had,
Though realistic and kept surreptitious for so long.

Dripped in regret
I soak in my own sorrow
Since last month I've been seeing only flashbacks
Recalling our time together
Reminiscing how happy I once was,

You with that enticing smile
Come to me in my dreams
Exciting me and loving me
Like an angel you brighten up my mood
Yet, we're not together and I, in abyss.

O my love,
I asked you once whether you loathe me,
All you said was nay,
Then he asked me if I loathe him,
I said yay.

The  blazing sun,
The radiance of her skin.
So enchanting,
And bewitching.

A vampire so ghastly told another vampire.
What a seldom act,
Falling for a mortal.

I've seen plenty,
But not one like him.
His pointy teeth and red eyes.
Anyways continuing his conversation.

Her body so gentle,
So soft,
And ripe.
Ima eat her alive.

Quickly erasing that thought,
He said no.
I'll marry her,
And turn her immortal.

The second vampire looked disgusted.
Then he began,
Ima call the volturi.
They'll come and fix your brain !

Deceive me my love,
And I'll cut off your Adams apple.

Memories,
Sigh,
Memories will always be just memories,

I remember the time you held my hand,
The time you pulled me close,
And I remember getting hung over,

Your I love you's,
So addicting,
Were a drug to me,

What potion was I given,
That once spell on me still hasn't broken,
It has enclosed memories of you in my heart,

The warmth of your hug,
The way your arms tightened around me,
Magic was in my veins,

It was me wholly entrapped in your love,
It made me happy,
It made me smile,

You made me lose myself,
Most importantly,
My shadow mysteriously vanished replacing you,

Your touch,
Like electricity made me shudder,
These were all symptoms of me falling in love,

But that's that,
They were just memories,
Now they reside incomplete and unsparked in my scarred and used heart.