All you see,
Is me,

Not the words,
I’ll never speak,

Nor the thoughts,
I can’t express,

All you see,
Is my wheelchair,

You see that,
And forget I can think,

You see that,
And forget that I can hear,

I can hear the things you say,
Right next to me,

I understand what you say,
About me,

I want to be heard,
But I can’t,

My thoughts can’t be heard,
By listening ears,

My thoughts will only be free,
To listening eyes,

If you want to see,
Who I am,

Listen to the words,
That I write,

And then you’ll see,
The real me.

Don’t fall in love with me.
There are days when I get sad without a reason
And I just stare at the ceiling
Senseless thought running around my mind like phrase
With tears streaming down my face.

Don’t fall in love with me.
On those days, I don’t talk to anyone.
I just bury myself on my mattress
And think about how I became this mess of sadness.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will become attached to you
And I will cry myself to sleep
If you don’t text me good night before you go to sleep
I will convince myself that it’s because you got tired of me.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m too much.
I will depend on you.
I need attention, much more than other people.
I’ll talk to you in metaphors and make you one.
I’ll write poems about you and open up notepad at 2 A.M.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I couldn’t stand you coming home to find me on the bathroom floor
Shaking and crying, with blood spilling from my wrists.
I couldn’t stand seeing the disappointment in your eyes.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will pour everything I’ve left of me into you,
Every bit of love, until I have nothing to give.
Until I become completely empty.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m scared that my sadness is contagious.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will replay your sweet words in my head
When I hate myself so much that I want to die.
Your words will be the only things that make me stay.

Don’t fall in love with me.
You will live in fear.
You won’t be able to leave me,
Because you’d know if you did, I wouldn’t have anything to live for.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Before I met you, there wasn’t a single person who could’ve made me stay.
You’re my reason now.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Because I will fall in love with you

In some crazy way
like  being loved
Poetry  gives me
Strength and
Motivation
at times it’s
all I  have
It’s where
I escaped
It’s Where I
feel right at home  
my happy
state of mind
Where I take
my mental
Essence to
a higher plateau
Where words
becomes Arts
Never ceased
to amazed
Let the ink
dance  with
my mind  
Tango enlightenment
Impossible to avoid
ink splattered
all over
my thoughts
It’s like swimming
In the  Black Sea
with full consent
into a black hole
Impossible to
let go
Orientation put
me into a dazed
But not for long
anticipating
memory fades
Ruined  expressions
like mind on fire
seeking for the  river
Put words together
analyzed all
the dance strides
my ink had taken
Scrutinized  
what It all means
and make sense
      of it all
Nevertheless
keep my insanity
Is The duel
being  fought
Enduringly
into the abyss of
The poetic  mind

I fell asleep to an episode of u
Where everything went wrong
It was all losses
Failures to endure
And in the end I was alone
Just as when I wake...I'll be alone
And maybe it wasn't a dream at all
It wasn't a fairytale
Made up in pink fleshy nerves
It wasn't a fable
Of grey sluggish electron matter
But it was real
So now waking up is pointless
There's no solution
No pinching the skin to see if I'm imagining
All the heartbreak
All the horror
And the guts ripped out
And hearts torn to shreds
It's in my head
And there is no bed that I can rest upon

I saw a fresh face
And got carried away
Swept like a stream off my feet
And into waters deep
And I didn't mean to
I just saw a smile
And wondered what it would be like
To cause such a thing
To make u laugh, see that smile
To be your one and only
Make your day brighter
I can't resist that smile
Or that face that spring rain brought new
A spring love
If only that were true
I should have kept my distance
Winds blew me to you
And you blew down my wall
Huff puff one two
Three
And all I see is you and me
I never should have lust for that face
And body to hold me
And hands to place
Where they should not place
Where I should not think
Yet about you is all I dream
I want you. I want your everything
I want you to be everything to me
You want nothing.
How insane of me to think
If only I'd never loved your face
I could forget you're not mine
A wish to never come true
I should have never let myself into you.