While the ocean unfolds
calm as still waters
I’m just another lost soul
floating helplessly with no colors

I’ll go where the tide told me to
because there’s no hope left in me
And everything looked so pointless
so why bother to fight for them

I’ve been screaming, yearning, longing for answers,
for a glimmer of hope
But every time I try harder,
the world brings me down
And here I am

But as the night went by,
and the stars fell down
The sun emerged,
and the warmth grew closer
The morning breeze greets me,
welcoming for a new start
Maybe I don’t have all the answers now
but that doesn’t mean I should settle down
And I may be floating
but i’m discovering the whole sea

The night when spring found us
under this dim disco light
you held your hand for me
and pulled my body into yours

With the heat of our love
and the pairs of eyes on us
I was so ready to kiss you
like we can do this all night

So let’s go nowhere, you said
under the small bridge
across the food stalls
with the murmurs of unfamiliar faces
in our big city
when everything will shine before us

We let our walls fall to the ground
and to release our soul
while our love is exploding
creating a universe between the two of us

Part 3 : I thought you love me, but it’s all my hallucination

The day you left me,
The last day of fall 2017.

You left your knife hanging on my heart
I thought we would last forever
But how could your love for me disappear so suddenly?
Why couldn't I see this coming?

Just that, you left me
When you knew my heart is still aching for you

So, I looked at your eyes for the last time
Hoping there’s something
But I didn’t see anything in them

The Ice Plants died slowly, and winter came.

Part 2 : I started loving you with no hesitation

Our last vacation together,
The last day of summer 2017.

The tall grass bowed to us,
as we made our way across the orphic meadow
We laid down together side by side
And on this damp grass,
under the clouds,
our hearts rang forever

At that moment, I said to myself,
time, space, and beings can’t step between us

I started writing musics with our love
And even the flowers started talking to me
Love just felt so magical

Love, I said to myself inside
I glanced at you,
and you smiled at me
The words stopped at the tip of my tongue
But before I could even say it,
our lips met, and the Ice Plants bloomed.

Part 1 : I opened our first page with no expectations

The day we first met,
The first day of spring 2015.

I still remember the scent of the cool air on that day
The silent wind tickled my exposed skin
The faded jazz music from the coffee shop
The customers’ chuckles and chatters

And then there’s you.

I still remember what you wore on that day
Even your first words to me
The sparks in your eyes pulled me
The sweetness in your smile weakened me

And when our eyes met, the Ice Plants bloomed.

Sophia,
She was full of interest but silent
her view to life was lucid but dim
She knew her finish line
so she dug the world to find her answer

She locked all her doors,
counted the stars,
dreamt until dawn,
nothing interest her outside her room

Then Sophia met Philos,
a man full of kindness, affection, and compassion
The world was his adventure, his arena
And they fell for each other

Sophia didn’t get him at first
He looked like a fool
But he loved her dearly
despite her cold heart and her uptightness
Philos gave anything to her

Sophia felt different since Philos
He thought her a view she once misunderstood
An overwhelming warmth hugged her body
filled with ideas and hopes
She felt moved to bring her outside

Love is the cause of action
and now she know that
Because without Philos, Sophia is nothing

I still remember,
the rusty bookshelf,
the creaky wooden floor,
the loud rumbling ceiling,
the cold dark room,
the stressed days,
the empty nights,
the silent cries,
the loud prayers,
and the timeless thoughts
I still remember, my last home

As sad as it might sound, I loved it there
I loved how the silence completed me, comforted me
It was the time when I felt the world was mine
And I long to go back

Now everything had changed
and off to a new chapter
With all the bright lights and the tall four walls
why I felt more isolated, more alone
Like I lost everything

When I think about it now, nothing is better
Then, where is home?