pretend we're not... we but are...we but are..
alone in that jungle rumble..
and you watching ..drama isn't fun
under there live with hands empty
for hundreds of years....
it was bad in you...we will not be tolerated...

Empty my tears deep  inside that cave ..

i'm going to make it there where you should
stay for millions of years..

not something you'll regret it later
because we simply just get bigger toys...

I would like you to know and remember that whenever the day or night gets too long or too short, or that the minutes get stretched and pulled tight between us, wherever and whatever we do, we'll always leave a trail behind us for everyone to see. We'll burn just like the clouds into the blue sky for the world to marvel at the sight that we have made. The luminous stars that appears after evening folds would be my love that glistens for you. I will love you until every star and every planet in the entire universe has been burned out, and even then, I will still love you even in the darkness.

Let me,
Be the waves;

The tides that will wash your troubled thoughts.

And with every crash of waves
being your happiness and joy,
Your ripples of bliss.

Pushing away crumpled parts,
Cradling your body
in warm currents.

Let me,
Be the waves.

Guiding you effortlessly
Out into the everlasting blue.

The waves, that orchestrates your heart.

I desire for someone to love me with enduring patience, to understand me and root for me through the good times and bad times. Someone to love me for who i am despite my flaws and my imperfections.

I also want to love someone whole heartedly and earnestly. To sit down on the floor in the living room at 2am and pour out our raw emotions; talking about about our favourite tv shows and dreams that we have yet to complete. Or our darkest fears and secrets. You could hurl all your rants and troubles at me and i’d still listen to them and reassure you’ll never feel alone for as long as I’m alive. I want to figure out your little insecurities and your fears. Let me learn them and fend you from them. We’ll watch all our favourite movies and tv shows while we have little cuddles and eat on the bed because no one is there to yell at us to not leave crumbs. Let me trace the beautiful networks of constellations down your skin and spine to admire the universe in you; the galaxy I wish to explore and the infinite amount of love I wish to give. Despite the flaws you think you may have, I’ll still love you regardless of what they are. I’ll sing you your favourite songs, plant you kisses and I’ll fall in love harder with you everyday.

I need you to know that you I may have never been the best with showing my love or with words but I promise and reassure you that I’ll love you unconditionally.

nothing wrecks a happy home more than an addiction.

a whirlwind of a house.
built on precarious cement.
yet, turning to corners to find
the walls nearly caving in.

this confusion,
a mind of maddening thoughts.
consumed in a vacuum of complexity.

locks of uncombed hair,
only adding to the weight etched on self.

nothing wrecks a happy home more than an addiction.

For the days when you feel like,
there is nothing left for you to feel.
As though the whole universe had come together
To conspire against you
And take away all that’s left of you.

For the nights when you feel
Heavy and restless
From the weight of your eyelids
that has seen too much.
Entertaining the repetitive dialogues
in your head that never ceases.
Unsettled.

You live your life
with a series of misunderstandings
And the concept of happiness
has never seem so
foreign to you.

This is for you.

You struggle to find meaning;
Any purpose or reasons to
live this life for one more day
When it hurts most to even breathe.

But darling,
I promise you that one day
The universe will be kinder and
You will find so much love that
You shall be whole again.

Those days you spent in the dark;
The nights that consumed you whole
And the mornings that arrived late in pieces
reflects nothing but your courage
to carry on, to travel further.

This one is for you.

One day,
The warm sun will rise and
days will no longer seem dull and long.
The hurt will be over.
And you, will lustre.

You will be okay.
Eventually.