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Ana S Mar 2016
Hmm... Funny how depression rots your sole.
Funny how your young but you feel old.
It has its arms around me.
It's the only one who really can see.
Into my mind digging deep.
Talking to me, soothing me to sleep.
Reminding me of lines that used to be on my arms.
Reminding me of all the people who did harm.
Made me feel unloved.
Made me feel unwanted.
I needed you.
What did you do?
Walked out on me like everyone else.
Yeah the one girl said a chance was worth taking.
But why take chances when I'm the end you are breaking.
Well the last girl left me for dead.
Atleast said the voices in my head.
A little crazy?
I'd say a lot.
I can make it all go away with a single shot.
A bullet through my brain.
I guess dying in lititure relieves some of the pain.
I still cry every night.
Stopped cutting because someone said it wasn't right.
My wrists still bleed.
Only more internally.
It's only a blood I can see.
Nobody else really cared.
So here I am crying again scared.
Scared of tomarow.
Falling back into the sorrow.
My best friend slash obsession.
My friend named depression.
There you go...
Ana S Mar 2016
You
You take away the pain.
You are the sun in the rain.
A strange girl.
Yes you came into my broken world.
Showed me how to love.
I didn't try to push or shove
You away.
Please I wanted you to stay.
I dream of us
What we could be
Why can't you just love me?
For a girl
Ana S Mar 2016
Yes I have a bipolar mind.
I look for clear but never know what I will find.
Mom sent me away.
For a few months and a day.
Mom said she couldn't handle me.
Why couldn't she see?
I wasn't really myself.
I was someone else.
Sometimes blue.
Gosh if I could sue.
Every little ****
Who made me hate my guts.
Awe look at her.
**** she's got the face of a murderer.
Why you always crying Graffe *** *****?
Why not end it and die in a ditch?
I was definatly all over the place.
Stuck with this awful race.
I couldn't control my actions.
So I shoved all emotions back with a little lithium.
Then I didn't see clear.
Actually nothing ever happens here.
I see nothing now.
And there's no changing my mind.
What the lithium did to me
Ana S Mar 2016
Cut your wrist baby.
Bleed just for me.
Tell me I never ******* cared.
Guess I was never there.
Try to run away.
Na babe where you going stay.
Create some stupid excuse on why you gotta go.
Yeah go be a stupid *** ***.
Sleeping around with your best friend.
That's a problem with lesbians.
I chose you.
Then what do you do?
Right after I think I can trust again
You go and rip open what we tried to mend.
Well ******* then.
To a girl.
Ana S Mar 2016
Math is killing me
Wasting me
It's taking my light
It is not right
F math
Just for fun
Ana S Mar 2016
Unlike a fox you are ever so obvious.
Yet like a crow you assumed I would never know.
Head up in the clouds.
Left me down on earth head throbbing around.
I can't do it.
I can't do it.
I'm sorry my love.
I killed a perfectly good dove.
So pure and loving.
She turning into nothing.
Needs never met.
Catching whatever you can in a net.
Some **** here.
Oh have some Ecstasy my dear.
How about a smoke.
Take down this pill with a coke.
Well *******.
And **** everything you do.
I hate you so much.
And to think we had something we called love.
I don't care anymore.
To an ex girlfriend...
Ana S Mar 2016
Her hands on my waist.
Dancing in a dress of lace.
Baby come here.
She took a step near.
Baby take me all the way.
Don't wait another day.
Yeah, I guess we rushed into things.
Words represented with promise rings.
I want you to hold me.
We were simply meant to be.
Our favorite quote.
Both of us devote,
So many hours,
My fingers running over your body in the shower.
Lips explore.
Never satisfied wanting more.
You take me to a place.
Somewhere I want to be.
Where it's just you and me.
XD
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