I’m not looking for perfection
I’m not looking for a distraction
But you’re my intervention

I’m not really sweet
I don’t want to get in a relationship
But you made me

I’m sorry that i’m distant
That i’m not clingy
But i’m distracting myself to think

I no longer know
What progress feels like
Every time I feel like
I have made
A major improvement
I lose my footing
And fall right back down
From where I started

I've realized everyone tells me to
let go and never look back;
but it makes me hold on tighter to
what we ha(d)(ve).

I'm sorry
I've been a bad daughter
I'm sorry
I made our reationship bad
I'm sorry
It's my fault
I'm sorry
I only ever think of myself
I'm sorry
I don't help you as much as I should
I'm sorry
I stress you out
I'm sorry
I don't act the way you want me to
I'm sorry
I don't think of your feelings
I'm sorry
I put up a wall
I'm sorry
if I've ever hurt you
I'm sorry
I'm bitter
I'm sorry
I don't know how to fix this
I'm sorry
I couldn't just say this out loud

Dear ex-boyfriend,
I'm sorry you had to go.
It wasn't fair, but I understand.
Your happiness was just as important to me
as my own.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
I hope you're doing well.
Never will I wish ill upon you,
no matter how much I wish I hate you.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
I'm crying on the floor.
My sadness is a black hole trying to **** me into myself.
I miss you.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
I'm wearing the make up that you hated.
*******.
I do what I want.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
You gave me hope that you would come back for me.
Don't.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
I realized that I never needed you to love me.
I realized that I was right here to do it for you.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
I look back fondly on our time together.
I will always love you.
But you left, and please never look back.

Dear ex-boyfriend,
One day you'll find a girl better than me.
I hope she makes you happy.

I can't open my eyes
everywhere I look
you're everywhere

why did you have to leave your mark
you were my first love and first heartbreak


I want to burn everything
that you gave me

I store it away instead
I don't want to forget

you melt away
inside my head
every night
I try to move on

like a scent
I can't get rid of

you follow me
inside out

you remember everything

I'm so close
I want to
burn two candles
to tear us apart

I'm not perfect,
I know I'll never be.
I still strive for perfection,
Something I'll never have.

Society wants perfection,
Even when it says it doesn't.
Just look at ads,
Movies,
Even vegetables have to look good,
For stores to sell them.

How can anyone or anything ever be good enough when held up against something unachievable?
Something not even the seemingly perfect people have or are,
Something we all know is impossible,
But we have heard that everything is possible,
So some of us never give up,
It will never make us happy
And it will never happen.

The only way is to accept imperfections,
Accept not being perfect,
Accept being you,
Accept being different
And accept life as it is.

I'm not saying give up on your dreams,
I'm saying don't make yourself something you're not,
this ideal that you have in your head that is unattainable,
this person that's so perfect that moving towards it becomes an obsession and addiction towards unhappiness, low selfesteem, depression and never feeling good enough no matter what you do or how hard you try.

I know it's cliche, but love yourself!