If ever I needed
Tonight so it seems
I need but a minute

A minute to think
A minute to breathe
A minute to throw up my finger
A minute to scream

Day growing closer
Night far too short
Soon comes tomorrow
Tomorrow and thoughts

Thoughts of a moment
Stains on a soul
Thoughts of ifs
Whys......Goodbyes
Hellos

Stains ....sinner's kiss
Longing marks
Lusting bliss

Free me, treachery
Free me of thought
Drown me, misery
Twist your plot
Allow me entry
To one solid day
Free from thought
Pain

Four days till
Four days not
Four days still
I'm forgot
But won't forget
Four days out
The beating heart
Torn, without
A knowing thought
Into my hand
From blood
To blood
And so I stand
Screaming at the moon
Tonight

Erase this memory!

Half of me is living
Half of me, in three
Half of me
Grey and gone
Half of me....

And so I long
For Darkness

A moment
Just for tonight.....
For Me....

©MV

If ever I needed
Tonight so it seems
I need but a minute

A minute to think
A minute to breathe
A minute to throw up my finger
A minute to scream

Day growing closer
Night far too short
Soon comes tomorrow
Tomorrow and thoughts

Thoughts of a moment
Stains on a soul
Thoughts of ifs
Whys......Goodbyes
Hellos

Stains ....sinner's kiss
Longing marks
Lusting bliss

Free me, treachery
Free me of thought
Drown me, misery
Twist your plot
Allow me entry
To one solid day
Free from thought
Pain

Four days till
Four days not
Four days still
I'm forgot
But won't forget
Four days out
The beating heart
Torn, without
A knowing thought
Into my hand
From blood
To blood
And so I stand
Screaming at the moon
Tonight

Erase this memory!

Half of me is living
Half of me, in three
Half of me
Grey and gone
Half of me....

And so I long
For Darkness

A moment
Just for tonight.....
For Me....

©MV

Verse
Enough of it
I refuse to write
All I ever get us in
Trouble and sin
Noone understands
Brain takes up hand
Foolishly ruled by heart
I end
I start
I write my heart
But for reasons
Unknown
I write to fill the void
Alone
And temperamental
None the less
I give of me
My heart and yet
I give it up
No more ink
I rather sleep, to this
Unthink
Able and yet
not one more word
I rather unread
Unheard
They never listen
Anyway
Just prayer
Confession
Washing me away
They don't understand
From where I came
A mile in shoes
Up in flames
They only
With their evil stares
Judge me
For my being
Made by their Creator

I'm feared
The Devil

©MV

Are you happy?
When I'm on his lips....

Do you love him?
More, with every kiss.....

Has he hurt you?
When he's away....

Would you leave him?
I'd beg to stay.....

Do you miss him?
Every day....

He sounds perfect!?
Far from, I'd say....

Does he love you?
Don't really "*******" know....

Are you his?
Whenever he says so.....

Is he yours?
Every time....

His best feature?
His dragon, upper spine....

How does he ******?
Lipstains and blood...

How shall you survive him?
I won't, starfucked love.....

©MV

Some days just feel like
They aren't worth the breath........
Constantly praying,
hoping for strength
Super cape on
Doing my best
But I'm called to the window
Lost in the stress
Thinking I'll fly
Finally at rest
Cause the thought of the darkness
Has me obsessed
Numb on the concrete
Cold to the rest
Flashbacks and spiraling
One last test
Hold on for the sirens
Give in to the light

Someone says mommy
And my head gets right
No flying from windows
Who would I be?
The mother who jumped?
They wouldn't understand me...
And I'd be the one
Who lost in the end
Every moment
They'd have to pretend
They'd have to light candles
In memory of me
But then what kind of mother
What kind
Would I be

So I hit my tea like some hit *******
I crochet anger away
And the pain
I take off the cape
And just give them plain me
Knowing I'm faulted and bruised
Like the sea
Calm but a force
Destructive but life
I give them their mommy
In spite of my strife.....

Loving them

©MV

I miss you
You ******* know I do
But what good is missing
When you're not missing me too

You weren't mine
I knew that much
But you told me you loved me
And I connected your touch
To emotions
And realness
But it was all lies
Now you're caught up
In krystals
And milky white thighs
She's not even pretty
She doesn't love you
But it's all about *****
And I ******* knew it too

I'm ranting forgive me
But I'm missing you so
The fact that it's over
And I've let go
No
I won't be returning
This time I'm done
I can't be up at night
Yearning
While you're out having fun
Ignoring
My need for you
My hoping for some
Of your attention
Your kisses
But I'm not the one....

******* all *******
Lover, you see
Was a ******* pretend word
That meant down to **** me
To feed me your false words
To make me believe
I was exclusive
You were a thief
Stealing my heart, the very essence of me
Leaving me dead
In an ocean of see
See you with her
See you without me
See you enjoying
See you ******* free
See you forgetting
Every curve every shape
Every moonlight
Every midnight and hate
Hate that it's easy
That it was pretend
Hate that I'm writing
It doesn't seem to want
To end

Type type
Finger to screen
Broken
Shattered
Wanting only to scream
**** it
A sigh
Putting it down
All that's left
Always
The tears of this clown...........

© MV

I'll describe it to you
Slow
Scrolled comforter
Warm sheets
Pillows
His skin
Silk against my own
Caramel, sweet on the tongue
Licking my lips as I write
I can still taste him
We were in it
Lost in our own little world
Thrusts and moans
Darkness
Scented candlelight
No words
And then, it began to explode
From black, to Red, to blur
His face never far from my own
Hand on my throat
Choke
And then
A kiss
Different and slow
Hard yet tender
A bite, a lick
Lost in that kiss
The rhythm changed
He pressed his forehead to mine
Eye to eye
Nose grazing nose
Slow
Every second slow
Every moment connecting
Soul
He said it all
Without saying a word
Every motion
Screamed out
Love
Every swirl
A letter of his name
Etched with every sigh
Deeper and deeper
Embedded in my heart
And there I lay
Gasping
Trying not to cry
Realizing why
The old saying goes
Love hurts
It's true you know
It destroys you
In the most beautiful way
And so there I lay
Destroyed
Alive
In Love

And so I can write....
I Lived ..... Once...
One day....One midnight...
Before I died.....
His ❤

©MV