Pretty pastels
Make my heart melt
But you’re a deeper shade
A love that won’t fade

I can't keep doing this stupid ****
Letting myself go
Telling my open heart
Yes and then no
And the decisions I make
Never seem to be right
Give away my body
And keep my heart locked tight

Since 4:30 in the morning
I've been looking at the sky
The way the dim rise of the sun
Glitters on the tide

My head is aching
From my busy mind
All the thoughts
I thought I'd left behind

If I ****** up by trying to heal
And I hurt you with my honesty
That's something I never meant
And I owe you an apology

I didn't want to wound you
The same way you wounded me
I just wanted to escape
My world turned tragedy

I had to pull myself back up
Any way I possibly could
I was willing to take the risk
But it didn't mean I should

I loved you with my whole heart
Even how tested I was
My feelings for you didn't break
I loved you just because

So I hope you never question
Whether I cared at all
Because every memory was special
No moment too small

So please don't take me too seriously
When I don't know how to cope
And I pray you never question
The way that your love gave me hope

When you told me you loved me
And asked if I did too
It wasn't that I didn't
Or that it was too soon
Just the compilation of my fears
And the vastness of my love
Made me wonder if it was real
And if I was enough
Because I was torn apart
And I love with everything
So if you hadn't really meant it
I couldn't bear the sting

Your kiss is invigorating
Strong like a numbing wave crashing overhead
Followed by the beating sun grazing my tingling skin
A perfect moment
Something I could linger in