Now I am tall not small
Where am I?
Where did I go?
What made it all
So,,, so complicated?
I was just a boy.
All I ever wanted
was to be a kid.
No one asked me
Now I am a man.
Did it happen overnight.
My girl friends from scool
became lovers.
I did not need that
I miss them.
We were always great friends
Trust was always there.
Now its flying above me
Landing like a butterfly
on my shoulder
Moving away
with the smallest breeze..
I am big
I want to be
small again..
Make me small.
Dont leave me here.
Please take me back.

I don't have any excuses for my ****-stained existence
I never doubted my Father's love
My Mother practices gentle sainthood without a hint of judgement
The children are top shelf human blessings to humanity
I am told I am loved and sometimes I almost believe it

The best I can come up with is that we all keep secrets from one another
Which is another way of saying we don't know one another at all
Maybe all of us are living in so much pain the only thing we know is to build walls around our selves to keep some semblance of sanity
I make no excuses I can't bring myself to say a ******* thing

People nowadays are too dependent on other people. As if they think having a boyfriend/girlfriend is going to fix all their problems. Sometimes people need to take the time to figure how to be in a healthy relationship with their self before engaging in a relationship with someone else.

Words were all but words
What you never said;
What you said to me
Curses under your breathe.

I opened up my heart
You tore it apart;
Said I lived in fantasies
Bound to turn to dust.

I would fall to the deep end
You wouldn't even help;
Screamed till I was spent
And you just laughed aloud.

I am fire, but he is the sun.
I am afraid that he is the one.
Burning so slowly, dying so fast.
I am afraid that I won't last.
Hold me tightly, love me strong.
For I am afraid we won't have long.
I am afraid, I am afraid.
We are nothing because I am afraid.

It wasn't you I wanted beside me,
It wasn't anyone in particular.
It wasn't anyone at all
It was the feeling of love,
Of being loved and taken care of.
This feeling is what I wanted,
To pin down and fall asleep
With its legs slung across me.
This longing has become need,
The need to feel any form of love
In ****** comfort and this security.
The need makes me stupid.