I swear I did not try to do this
I didn’t mean to rekindle this flame
As the low burning is humming
I softly whisper your name
The bigger the fire grows
more emotion I seem to feel
and the louder the begging becomes
at your feet I kneel.

IT STARTED AS A SIMPLE SPARK
NOTHING TO GREAT OR TO BRIGHT
AND GREW INTO A ROARING FIRE
THAT ILLUMINATED THE WHOLE NIGHT
I DIDN'T KNOW A FIRE COULD CAUSE SO MUCH JOY
OR THAT I WOULD EVER FEEL THIS WAY
SO I LONG ONLY FOR THE EVENING DARK
TO TRULY WITNESS THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE DAY

******* for
turning out to be
nothing more than
two wasted months of
maybes.

I'm drowning again
Waves have been crashing over me
As I struggled to swim
But now
I'm just sinking
The fight is gone
Gravity is taking over
And the light grows thin
As I sink into darkness
I tell myself to breathe
But it's a hard thing to do underwater

I may be a butterfly to you,
but moths can be mistaken for butterflies.
It's a common mistake everyone makes.

I'll just buzz around at your window,
seeking your light, your warmth,
but once you let me in,
I'll just fly around, pesky and all.

You see, I need your night-time lightning
more than you need my silent thunder.
I'm attracted to your night-time lightning,
just like everyone else.
The warmth,
the buzz,
the light it brings.
Who wouldn't want to get to know you?
But silent thunder?
Who needs that?

You see, my dear,
Lightning best thrives in the dark,
it shines brighter then.
Me?
I follow the night-time lightning,
trailing behind it everywhere it goes.
People forget I'm there,
they are too much in awe by you
to remember me.
But that's okay.
I'm the ugly one,
and I still can't believe that you
the lightning of the night,
the savior of the broken,
the luminosity that breaks open the sky
and reminds us that there's always hope even when things are dark,
you let me stay with you...

And for that,
I love you ever more,
and would like to thank you
from the bottom of my soul and heart.
I will serve you in the best way I know how.