Crimson liquid flows
Your entire body slows
Death's numbers will grow

The scorching heat rose
Reaching the height of passion
New life starts to grow

Time stood still that day, for me it never really caught back up again . I can still see that black smudge mark on the pristine white wall, it was what I focused on thoughout the pain,

You entered my world and within seconds you left again, I'll never forget that eerie silence,with just the ticking of the clock to be heard, and the nurse's face, how quickly the colour drained.

I knew at that moment but I still waited, hoping to hear the cry that never happened.Now I'm left with an emptiness no one can fill, The worst thing was the waiting, hearing cries from all other room except this one... but wait there were cries here, mine.

How can they tell me to move on?

How can they make out you never exsisted?

I still have the swollen ******* that have harden where you're not there to suckle the milk from them, I still see mum's with their newborns in the street, yet I come home and your room is empty where they packed your things away and repainted it a dull yellow.

I want to scream, but I don't, I just give a small smile, what's the point of saying anything they think I need help anyway.

You were a part of me, everytime you moved I felt it, I knew when you had hiccups cause it felt like a bouncing ball in my stomach,and at night you reminded me you were still there with your kicks to my ribs I'd already fallen in love with you, maybe that's why time can't move on, for I pray to go back to the seconds before that final push, when you and I were still connected, maybe than I could change the outcome, but that's not going to happen is it?

What I can't understand is why, why let the whole nine months go by so fantastically, I was glowing now my world is dark, just darkness with no light at the end of the tunnel.

I pray you saw that light and it took you to that better place, where one day we'll meet again. Until that day my life will be stuck reliving those seconds you were still there inside of me, I'll still feel your heart beating next to mine, and you will not have died.

I travelled the long deserted road, trying to get rid of my heavy load. The hours turned into days but my worries wouldn't go away.
I pulled off to the side and took in the breathtaking views, the wind was gently blowing the trees from side to side it was like they were waving just for me.
Far in the vally below wild animals were drinking from a small watering hole, they seemed to not have a care in the world, how I wished to be free like them.
My thoughts went back to that day, the shouting him laying his hand to my face saying I was his and I would do as I was told, that he owned me.
Nobody was ever going to own me, my spirit is a free spirit, just then an egale flew above me its wings spread wide gliding with ease
I knew what I had to do, my mind was clear for the first time in years I could almost here the calling.
I jumped back in the car, grabbed my bag then let the handbrake go, My smile was genuine for the first time as the car plunged over the cliff, I was free to start over again...
I continued on the long deserted road by foot watching the sun begining to set, I had not a care in the world........

I'm watching you, but you don't see me, I'm the nightmare of your dreams. You check under your bed each night, but I'm hiding in your head out of sight.

Today I know you are feeling low, that's my cue to make a show.I see you looking over your shoulder, I bet you have goosebumps all over, I can make you believe what I want you to believe, like can you see that little girl, that's right the one wearing the bright yellow dress, quick she's getting closer to the cliffs edge.

No one is around she must be lost, quick you must save her, run she going to fall, you'll never forgive youself if she falls, don't stop just because you have come to the edge, go on you know you'll be better of dead.

Here I'll give you a helping hand, no use you screaming, remember you're only dreaming, but remember I'm watching you and any time soon your dreams will start coming true.....

These invisible wings,
Carry my heart to you.
Even though you broke it,
It remains loyal and true.