Feeling free with the warm sand under my feet
A playful warm energy fills the air with a relaxing summer breeze
Waves relentlessly crashing into the shore with a passionate roar
Just to retreat in a peacefully silent murmur
Kids running around in pure glee
Charging into the waves so care free without fear of being dragged out to sea
While others tip toe around while the water grazes their feet
The brave ones jump into the sea just to feel complete
A feeling of being with themselves and the sea
A feeling that terrifies many but those that want to feel complete
Once you jump there’s no way to return without fighting the sea
If you are lucky you will feel complete without a concern of being dragged out to sea

Now I sit here staring out into the sea
Occasionally dancing around the edge of the sea
Sometimes I will walk waist deep into the sea
But always return to the safety of this beach
Feeling free after I fought to get back to this sandy beach
Afraid to jump in so care free because I don’t think I got another fight left in me to get back to this beach
I just hope when I get the courage to jump back into the sea
That I will get swept off my feet and taken with ease

You're so beautiful and you don't even know it that's my favorite part
Your laugh is so cute and innocent that's my favorite part
Your smile makes me melt and that's my favorite part
Your wall you put up falls apart when I'm around that's my favorite part
Your will to be honest about your insecurities that's favorite part
Your will to talk about anything that bothers you that's my favorite part
Your eyes make me lose track of time that's my favorite part
You feeling like you can be yourself around me is my favorite part

They both saw the brightest stars in one another eyes
But their stars never aligned
Because the light in their eyes
Were from the past which they could never revive

Everyone was out being jolly and happy
I sat there in living my biggest fear
Being completely alone with no one willing to lend an ear
Feeling like I have lost everything
All I had were my thoughts and my own ears
Telling myself I let down my family and peers
Letting her get away was my biggest mistake I ever made
She was with a guy that didn't deserve to see her tears
Seeing her everyday was a living nightmare
Because I couldn't take away her hidden tears
Everyday I tried my hardest to shovel my feelings into a shallow grave
Just to have them resurface by the water from my own tears

Everyday was a nightmare
I was bleeding internally while being kick down by people
That I thought actually cared
I tried my hardest to hold back my tears
But that night I cried for the first time out of feeling completely alone
Asking myself what could've I done
Why am I the one crying these tears I never deserved
Why am I so alone when all I try to do is bring joy to the world

I was mourning my own death for so long I forgot how to live
I continued walking forward in this nightmarish state
I was doing everything to make myself proud just to see light
In such a dimly lit place in my mind
What a dreary and dreadful nightmare I was living
But something reached out and caught me

One day my dreams were no longer about loneliness or fear
I looked back at all those nightmares and I saw a different version of me
I climbed mountains without realizing it
I killed many demons that were so much bigger than me
I was started feeling light and cherished
Cherished by my peers
Cherished by my family
Cherished by my friends
Cherished by her
Now I am scared to wake up because everything feels like a dream

Words can **** someone
Shorter the more impactful
Words can save someone

Dreary cloudy days
Wishing I had someone to
Nap the day away

I want a relationship built on trust
I want to celebrate our accomplishments
I want to listen to you rant about how good or bad your day was
I want to take care of you when your sick
I want to surprise you with breakfast in bed
I want to try weird foods with you
I want to go on spontaneous adventures
I want to have days where we just stay in bed
I want to laugh until I can't breathe with you
I want to fall asleep with you in my arms
I want cheesy dates to the movies
I want to go on long walks on the beach
I want to go shopping and spoil you
I want to share straws in a cup
Because I've never had that.