The fullness of her chest and the gap between her thighs
Regrets of things she couldn't change smeared on her face.
Loyal and loving, longing for normality
Grey draped under her eyes, a penchant for taking a draw
I'm sorry things didn't get better.
I should have done so much more

Will we ever leave this page of hypothetical love?

I don't know a lot of things,
I don't know why leaves should be green and skies should be blue,
I don't know what can drive a person to do some of the things that they do,
I don't get why people can't just talk about how they feel,
And I will probably never learn to determine the difference between what is fake and what's real,
But I think I've learned
One must suffer into the truth because they cannot know true happiness without pain,
Heavenly bread should never be the cost of an earthly gain,
The only person you owe anything to is you,
And you deserve to be happy, no matter sins you've committed and ones you will do,
And the one thing I know to be infallibly true,
Is no matter what I tell myself, what I say, I think I may love you
But you don't feel the same way as me
And that's okay too

Someone asked me one day why I wrote so much.
I told them to be quiet because I was listening to what the pen said to the paper.
I was trying to hear their love story.
The one unspoken.

Someone once told me
That words are nothing
And shouldn't hurt you
The way the punches do,
That words have no power
In relation to physical violence,
At the face of bullying.

Someone once told me
That words have the power
To change the world,
That they are more powerful
Than wars and acts of destruction
At the face of peace.

Who was bullshitting me?

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          "If everyone were equal how would anyone have any value?"

I set my
Alarm on
Nothing.

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"Whenever I meet someone I really like I always want to tell them I love them right away. In fact, I have to try really hard not to.

Most people are just as afraid of affection as they are of abandonment."































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