Press the barrel with splatted dreams against my head.
Sorry that my only skill was to lie.
It killed me, bit by bit every time.
Just making this time that has finally come, easier.
I have slowly comes to love the sun.
To appreciate each blade of grass between my toes.
To love how a drop of sweat runs down my face.
Accept the pain that comes from laughing.
What I'm trying to say.
Can not be expressed onto paper with ink...
No.
Now this is the point where I say how much I'm sorry for leaving.
And I truly am...
But as I write this letter.
I have removed the barrel.
And walking to your room.
To say...

The evil has gone from me now.
I'm gone.
What's left...
Is the one you feel in love with...
And I'm sorry I left for so long.

I love you.

I'm in my bed,
And its 2am.
Once again
I'm awake.
How many nights
Must I see new day?
This is slowly killing me.
I don't know,
What should I do?
The thought
Of blades,
And pills,
And endless sleep.
Haunts my weary eyes.
How much longer
Can I survive?
I don't want to die
Or life this life.
I just want to feel free,
I just want to feel.
Something that's not...
Nothing...
I want to swallow,
Every pill I see.
And use my blade,
In my draw,
To let blood spill.

All of the thoughts are true.
Nothing is made up.
This is what I think at night!
And it scares me all the time!
I need help.
But I'm scarred to get it.
I just feel so lost.
With a sign telling me where to go right in my face.
But I just can't read it...

Down the rabbit hole
Such a strange place
Into a world
Were your gone with no trace

Down the rabbit hole
Oh wouldn't it be fun
To leave your life
Be free and run

Down the rabbit hole
My final dream
To meet with the white rabbit
And become a team

Down the rabbit hole
A silly wish of mine
Were you fear you are mad
But there, mad is fine

Down the rabbit hole
'Tis merely my own mind
Were dreams and ambitions
I there, do hope to find

Bleeding heart held in your hand
Something I will not understand
How can you watch blood drip?
How can you be the one to rip?
I remember giving you my heart
Say 'here so we can never be apart'
You smiled at me
Say we will always be we
Than you placed it in a chest
Somewhere it could rest
You took yours out as well
And chatted some kind of spell
About how we will always love
Even if one is above
Than you handed me a blood soaked rag
And I placed it in my bag
I whispered that it will be safe and sound
Even when you 6 feet in ground
Nod your head
And you fell dead
Had I known you would die right there
I would change fate for something more fair
It took me years upon years to see why you died
And know that I know, all I did was cry
To you for the reasons why
To the devil for your soul he did buy
To me for making see that for you to die
Was the only way for me to live

Because you made a deal with the devil
You made a deal with evil
You gave your years to me
So tomorrow I could see...

"You are so deep in your thoughts you could die drowned by them."

1, 2, 3...
1, 2, 3...
We dance around the room
Our feet speaks with the music
My hands in yours
Stop a second
You twirl me now
Then catch me safely
I listen to no sound
The room now empty
But you and me
Twirls me again
So you can see
With each step we make
Each breath we take
Is to the music
1, 2, 3...
1, 2, 3...*
Now we take our bow
For this was your last dance
As it was my last as well