I listen to 1975 on repeat,
Because all I can do is think of u
All I can do is cry over ur kisses and
Scream that I miss you to the wind
I want to dance in the stars or
drink till I’m dead-
No In between-
I want to marry you
Or live abandoned in a forest till my bones dry into the dirt around my feet
If you will not stay
I, too, will have no good reason to exist
If I cannot have you
I want no one else ...
Just listening to 1975,
Thinking of all the ways I miss you
And all the ways I love you

I would let my demons consume me
If it meant that you would be better.
I would let you eat my heart
If it took away your loneliness.
And I would set myself on fire every single day
If it meant that I could hold you
o n e. l a s t. t i m e.

Grey sky,
black branches cracking through,
wet grass,
broken bench,
green in your eyes
and sparks in my heart.

I cant be me
When you are around
I am buried deep
Way under the ground
I want to come out
So scared to make a sound
But someday Im sure
My heart will pound
Let me loose from its grip
To the pain I was bound
I will be known
I will be found