I never knew what lonely was til I met you
How two people could be in the same room
Never touching
Barely breathing
Drowning in unsaid words
Substituting reality TV for reality

My love was not enough

And so I left and you claimed to be bereft

Until weeks later when you found:

A new maid
A new babysitter
A new chef
A new laundress
A new set of children

And I found things I'd forgotten I had:

Old joy
Old freedom
Old hope
Old confidence
Old dreams

Each made anew as I became myself again

(T)onight we get *****
(I) prepared all the tools
(E)nter my dark room

(M)ake me suffer. I
(E)njoy the pain

(U)ltimate bliss
(P)leasure attained


(C)andle wax poured on my skin
(H)umiliate me im hankering after it
(O)n my knees i ll beg for it
(K)eep me on the line
(E)nsure my spice

(M)ake me lose control
(E)mmerse my soul

Words Of Harfouchism

Your velvet whisper in the night
As you serenade me from an ocean away
Banishes old hurts and slights
From the faded memories of long-gone days

Every morning when I arise
I just want to dream so I can join you there
And once again look in your eyes
As you tangle your hands in my hair

The teenage-me
In combat boots
Remembers the teenage  you
In your Sunday best

We were oh so young

You, I yearned to see
I peeked between suits
From behind pews
Til my eyes, on you could rest

And I prayed you'd see me too

One day you noticed me
Never knowing I was enjoying the fruits
Of a drug-hazed youth
You said you loved me best

Until the day you didn't

I stole your virginity
Never caring for your Christian roots
You finally saw the ruse
And you laid our love to rest

And I realized you only loved the idea of me