Dear Dad,
Are you proud of me?
This wandering lost soul
Too afraid to let go
I search for you
I see your face as people walk by on the streets
All these pieces of you left
And no instructions to follow
I worry that I’m like you
Not just the good but the bad
The monster that I know you were
And the wonderful dad that I had
Sometimes I sit up at night
I scream and cry up at you
How can you hate a ghost?
I don’t know how but I do
The web of lies that you spun
You left us here to undo
How could someone I love so much
Be this ****** up person I’ve come to know
Then leave us here
No last words of wisdom
No letters of truth
You left me broken and confused
A shell of a person
A lost little girl clinging onto a life she was promised
But never received
I hate that despite all that
I would give anything to have you back
Just one more minute
A little bit more time
Time that was stolen from us
Before you left I thought superheroes existed
But that all went awry when superman died
So I wander
Maybe in time I’ll be able to accept you
All of you and everything you did
Until then I’ll be angry
A sad little kid
Searching for a truth that is mine
All of me is what is left of you
And all I know is the death of you

Sometimes I go to call you
I never bring myself to dial
I know you’re smiling somewhere else
And I can’t change what has come to pass

Sometimes I miss you
the laughter we would share
I could tell you my hopes and dreams
and you’d say you would be there

Now you’re just a shadow
and empty place next to me
A wordless wall staring at me

I wish I could reach out
Tell you all about my life
Share the ups and downs
But now you’re gone

And all I can do is make just a small try
A whisper of a sound
Dear Friend, I miss your voice

Here we are in the most romantic city in the world
Worlds apart
Try to jump start the heart
We lost the spark
Too cruel to let go
Too afraid to stay
We're over
Backtrack
We can't be over
This life just aint possible without you in it
It's sickly sick
The addiction is quick
Make a wish
Blow it with a kiss
Don't forget wishes are hopeless
Here he comes again though
Run around
Have another go
Love
Hate
Up
Down
It's like ying and yang
Can't have one without the other
That's me and you
The lies spill out better and better
He gets clever
But so are you
And so the tango begins
Who will walk out victorious this time?
Two hearts on the line
Oh **** he's taken mine
Give it back
No
Keep it safe
Would you believe me if i said yes?
This is crazy
Maybe it doesn't have to be
I wanna leave
I aint giving it back
It's hurting
I still aint giving it back
Love too strong to control
Impulsive and irrational
Words we don't mean
Actions we can't take back
Thoughts we never say
Secrets keeping the pain
Hide the scars
Its when fire and ice collide
He cuts, you burn.
Somehow you just lost your turn
Let him go
It’s hard
Take a step forward
You take four steps back
This love is toxic
And so you lie
Inhale the fumes
And die
Wake up
No breaths  
You can't leave
I just left
The sweet surrender of death
Resuscitate  
Change of fate
you can't opt out
It’s you and him
Together as long as the world spins
Entangled in a twisted existence
Neither willing to give in
And when we have this
Nobody wins.

Getting lost in a daydream
What happens when fantasy is better than reality
Just one little thought
One idea
Your mind just takes it and runs
You get that sick stomach feeling
The butterflies
The what ifs
Wouldn’t it be wonderful
But expectations are never met
The story never ends the way you want it to
There you are
Standing in the middle of your own imagination
Just lost
Nowhere to run
You always just run into yourself
This little box you created to keep yourself safe has turned on you
No one to blame but yourself
Your legs start to break
Lungs collapse
Too tired to keep going
But you do
Why?
Keep on chasing this crazy dream that only leads down one road
You know the road
You said time and time again
I’ll never do it
I’ll stop
You never stop
Still that same little girl spinning around in tea cups
Cry for help but no one to hear you
Thwarted again by that **** box
Until one day you found a key
And that key fit into a lock
And so you opened the box
What now?
Ah, isn’t that beauty of it?
Anything you want