Until you can fully forgive
Is when you can truly move on

“Could you ever be ashamed of me?
Sometimes I ask how could you ever want me.”
Lyrics so loud and clear hitting me
Triggering these inner demons that take control of me
I ask myself could you really?
I’d like to think that you could want me
But my demons tell me differently
You’re out of my league
I hope one day I’ll get over these insecurities
Because I’d like to think there could be a you and me

I just want to vibe to good music with you...

If it ain’t you i’d rather vibe alone...

You know that feeling of addiction?
Imagine an addiction to a soul who gives you the right kinda feels..
Great right?
Now imagine an addiction to a toxic soul..
One that you know is not good for you but you still crave..
***** DEADLY..
Get your *** to rehab..

find the one who will

build you
support you
encourage you
and push you to become a better version of who you already are

find the one who will
listen
seek to understand
and continue to fight for you when things get rough

and when you find that one
don’t let go
cause they don’t come around often

i sit here broken
pieces i have still yet to learn to piece back together
regret?
no
if i could go back in time knowing it would end the same way
would i do it all over again knowing the pain i went through?
with no hesitation i would do it in an instant
because aside from it all you showed me how it felt
to be in love
to crave someone so much
and showed me what i never thought was possible
without you I wouldn’t have known that I could treat another person with so much love and care and for that I thank you
Because with whom ever I end up with I know she will be treated the way she deserves to be treated
Like a queen who deserves the world

And just like that..

I no longer hear from you..