I really can't be mad. I have myself to blame
What she's done to me, I've done just the same
Still far ahead, but so sick of this game
Maybe it's too late, I have myself to blame.

Don't hold your feelings in, maybe it's too late.
If you miss your chance, you'll have your self to hate
In this life you carry a lot of weight
Get your **** together, maybe it's too late.

Move quick, get your **** together.
Face it, you can't live like this forever.
Brace yourself, you're in for nasty weather
Here comes pain, get your **** together.

Not much longer, here comes pain
So much to lose, so much to gain
Looking for sun, standing in the rain
I really can't be mad. I have myself to blame

You're asleep on the phone with me right now
We were talking about some plans...
I hear your peaceful breath
I miss you
But I don't want you to get up, stay right here, I'll be back
You worry about me all time, I guess that's fair
But deep down, you know I'll be fine
So don't change what you're doing, stay right there. I'll be back
You love me, this is something I know no doubt.
But I want to make something very clear

I'll be back soon

She caught me in a trap
She reads me like a map
These simple lines I say
Vary from day to day
I think I'm a simple guy
My softer side is too shy
I can't help but stand tall
Fearing nothing but the fall
I'm coming close to never
But hoping for forever
Everything is going to change
When we each part ways
I hate what I've become
In this Arizona sun
I regret decisions I've made
But refuse to stand in the shade
Would I change it all?
My guess as good as yalls
My friends are all doing great
But I struggle with my fate
I want to go back in time
LoL **** I can't find a rhyme
That was an unintentional rhyme
I do that all the time
I guess I am a poet
But ****, I didn't know it
I'll just stop here and go back
See my friends, sip some Jack
I feel like my glory days have passed
Only 20 now, but running out of gas
The expectations of my peers
Is one of my biggest fears
I don't want do disappoint anyone
But I can't help but run
I miss the days at home
So let me write a poem

ADelicateConveration.
APainfulTruth.
ThickTension.
Explosion.
I'm­Sorry.

A word that chills me to the bone.
I can't kiss you through the telephone.
It's hard to hear, and painful to think
She'd choose me over her cold drink.

Leave her smoke
Sell her car
I start to choke
But she's too far.

Four letters mean a lot
When it's more then just a thought.

I'd love to be here at the end of the day.
Don't use that word and I might... just...



Stay.

Moving in a direction that I don't know.
Truth is, you reap what you sow.
Moving too fast, I can't help but shout.
Hoping for success but don't know the route.

Maybe I'll find the one I need.
Haha. Maybe not.
I don't need another mouth to feed.
****, that girl is hot.

I'll find her, or she'll find me.
Soon I'll become what I need to be.
What's in the way? There must be something.
A girl that really shouldn't mean nothing.
There's only one thing to be done.
I'll see you later, I gotta run.



Burn the bridge, cut the string. Walk away, don't say a thing.

Who are you when I'm not in town?
Perhaps the same girl I love to be around?
Better yet are you that way with someone new?
Now you've done things I never thought you'd do.

If it was a woman I cared less about
I'd open the door, and simply tell you "out"
You seem to mean more and I don't know why
Maybe I'll grow up and come over tonight

If it was a man I didn't see as my brother
(For lack of better words) I'd **** that *******.
I see his pain too and I can't lead an attack
Although I've felt the pain of a stab in the back

I will not lie, I deserve this after-all
Let's hope this doesn't cause our feelings to fall
I do not know how my life will unfold
At the end of the day, it's you I'd like to hold

I speak like I'm in High school, dumb and full of love, high as bird
These feelings that you give me..... wait I just used the L word

Many nights have passed with her sleeping in my head
But when I wake up, I'm laying in your bed
You make her disappear, like no one else before
And you make me think twice before walking out the door.

Let's really be honest, we're not each other's type
But your smile makes me believe in all the hype
Please don't listen to things you may have heard
Just know that I..... Almost used the L word.

I build up bridges
They will soon crumble

I feed her small ego
Try to act like I'm humble

She sits down alone
crying on the floor

I'm too far gone
Headed for the door

She tells me I'm great
I start to believe

She's wasting her breath
I think I must leave

Her thoughts keep me up at night
**** it's already dawn

I must keep moving now
I'm already gone.

What is this ache iinside of me? It surpasses any hunger. It's more subtle then any pain. But more tender than any bruise. Larger than any thought. Yet delicate enough to shatter. Stronger than any metal. At the same time it can changed every day. Physically it feels like spare change that's not worth picking up. Spirituality it is something I can't forget. It pulses through my body, jolting pain with each agonizing second that passes.
Wait.

Is that

Means nothing without action.
But I can't...

To your own advice.
To your own heart.
To your own future.

He holds her heart and she holds his.



Feelings are stupid.

i say sorry often because i mess up a lot.
i mess up often because things aren't what i thought.
i'd like to think more so I say sorry less.
But i'm not too sure that would be best.

The fault in my mind is that it is mine
I give no one a chance to hear me whine

I think I am simple but that's not the case I'm speeding through life, but it's not a race

I've no time for this I need to exceed
The goals that everyone has for me

Failure's my fear and this is my truth
So as I accel, I'm not running from you

I run so fast I can't pay attention
I run from people who show me affection

This is absurd but that's not my view
If I could explain it you'd see it too

I'm her monster
Once in her bed
Now inside her head
Destroying her mind with thoughts of unrest
Now it's too much, I don't know what's best
Would it have been better to leave her be
Not just her pain, it also hurts me.

Found my passion.
Found myself.
Lost motivation.
Found a girl.
Found motivation.
Found the military.
Found new passion.
Got married.
Dramatic events.
Adulting through it.
She moved in.
Remembered my lost passion.


But I'm too far forward now.